Bec, I am so sorry you're feeling so down ATM. I have read your blog and I was just crying reading it, as I often felt exactly the same as you did after I lost Joshua. It is so amazing how we mirror each other in our grief like that, it certainly helps to know that there are people out there who really understand our grief. Even though my transfer is only a couple of days away, I still feel so sad to be starting a new journey again, when I should be enjoying my little boy. This month, Joshua would have been 5 months old.
I think our pain will never go away Bec, we are learning to live with it but that's as good as it will get. It's just not fair what happened to us, that's the simple truth.
I wish I could reach across the screen and give you a huge hug, I know how much it hurts hun
On a more positive note, I am certain that soon you will be joining us here with the great news of your very own BFP, please don't give up hope and trust that it will happen soon hun .
Cheryl, I am so glad you've had a good break. You know, my own brother did not say anything to us when we lost Joshua, he didn't know how to deal with it and chose not to say anything. I was really angry (and my DF even more so) with him, but now I have forgiven him as I understand that he just didn't know how to deal with our loss. We are not close anyway, so I think that made the difference.
Hun, AF will come soon, I have no doubt. But if you haven't tried AP yet, I would strongly recommend it as I now have heard so many positive stories about getting pg while undertaking the treatment, just look at Megan!
Hoping with all my might and praying very hard that AF will soon visit you
Megan, sending you lots of very sticky vibes and big hugs hun.
Aries & Samcougar, praying hard for a BFP for you soon girls
Diana, hello sweets and drop us a line if you feel up to it
AFM, I had some very strange pains today in and around my uterus. Felt like horrible stabbing pains on the right side. I then got a cold sweat feeling and felt very light headed and almost fainted. I got so freaked out. Ended up calling my IVF nurse to find out what was happening to me, but she said it sonded like O pain still. I'm not so convinced, I'll see how I feel tomorrow, but if it continues I will go and see a doc. I really want to be OK for Saturday. One of my friends at work thought it might be stress and anxiety, but I don't know. I've never felt like this before, my guess is my BP is either low or high.
Big hello and hugs for everyone else, and thanks so much for your lovely wishes girls, I really appreciate it.
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