I have had a very busy week and am back travelling for work again which I am not that happy about because I know that flying does take its toll on my body. But anyway that is life at the moment as we are short staffed at work.
Well I'm CD33 today and had a BFN on Monday morning. I did ovulate late and I thought I had twinges of AF arriving last weekend and then again on Wednesday. My AP says that the jet lag can muck things up a bit, so I am really hoping that this cycle will be somewhat normal, that is much less than 100 plus days!
I have had some sad times this last week and it seems that the slighest thing can set me off, listening to a song on the radio, driving past the cemtery where Ryan is buried - which happens most mornings on my way to work - and just thinking about Ryan and how my life would have been so different if he were alive. I managed to summon up the courage to post some wedding photos to Facebook. It was hard to look back on the time when we were so happy and naive and I was 16 weeks pg. So there were some tears shed there too.
I am fairly sure that my weird cycle lengths are still a hangover from my stress and emotional upheaval. I am trying to do positive self talk each day, reassuring me that I will fall pg again, that we will have a baby, and trying to visualise us with a healthy live baby. It's still early days and hard but I hope that it makes a difference.
Anyway, I must rush. We're going out to dinner and I need to wash my hair!
Take care all and will pop back in later for persies!
which I am not that happy about because I know that flying does take its toll on my body. But anyway that is life at the moment as we are short staffed at work.
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