TTC after Late Loss, Recurrent Miscarriage or Stillbirth #2 2010

[Gigi1]

Chris, so well put. Thinking of you too hun...TWW can be a trial.
Teni, I am sorry hun that another cycle has let you down. I often fall into the hole where you find yourself now and I have past DD's anniversary. It is still so raw for you. I still find myself overwhelmed with grief sometimes and it feels like yesterday. I can only imagine how you must be feeling right now. I know we are all different but sadly we share something horrible- an understanding.
I am so sorry it is a hard day for you. Keep your hope and if it evades you today, know that somehow it will return. Thinking of you. xoxo

AFM- CD17 and amidst TWW. I am very nervous but also excited...kind of equal servings of both. Every now and then one will tip the scales and they seem to take turns. I am not sleeping well at all and find myself all over the shop.
My dear friend who has lost many bubs in first tri has just found out that her 8 week pregnancy is a Phantom. I don't understand fully how they work but she now finds herself yet again in familar shoes waiting for her body to miscarry. They are both devastated and grieving. God i wish life weren't so cruel. Sometimes there is just no rhyme or reason to break a heart. I am gutted for them and it leaves me in familiar shoes hoping that if and when i fall pregnant, i don't want my news to hurt anyone i love or care for. Her last loss was a month before we fell preg with DD. I silently thought that her body and spirit introduced our DD before she came to us. That she gave us the greatest gift of all. She had once or twice said to us that she wish she could sarrogate for us and maybe in some cosmic way she did. She has two beautiful children 14 and 10 but her family feels incomplete. I think it is magical and incredible a woman and a man can have such strong intuition to just know that is so. Hmmm...life, a full on journey.

Going to see Train this weekend which shoud be fun. DH has only one day off this week.I have more photos to take this week and i have one more day to develop what i have so far while big w has a sale on. That should keep me busy for a TWW...without me delving into the world of planning a pregnancy's life too much. Here's hoping. xoxo

[crumpet]

Just did a stupid thing and read most of what SHOULD be my baby buddies group Why can't I just go back to February and make everything okay again? I don't WANT to be in this thread, I don't want to be TTC, I just want my baby! I don't want to be awake at this time of morning for no reason... I should be up feeding a little chubby baby...

Sorry... I needed to vent but didn't think it warranted a new thread...

hun i know how u feel to a certain extent...

please dont take this the wrong way i dont know exactly how to word it....

i dont want to be struggling with pregnancy stuff like morning sickness, like u i should have a porky new born to be looking after and what not, but here i am starting this journey all over again......

its a bloody hard ride isnt it hun...

big for u

[Chez67]

Hi ladies

ChrisW - after I read your story about the wasp stings while mowing and knew that you were ok, you had me ROFL about you yelling at your DH and him not realising it was an emergency! Sometimes they can be a little slow... my DH runs at every bang or yelp from me so I know I have to be careful otherwise he worries too much.

Teni - happy belated birthday and sorry for your BFN hun . And I understand where you are at completely missing your baby and feeling the way you do. I see babies in prams that the age that Ryan should be ATM and I get a sinking feeling in my heart. It's just so damn unfair!

Crumpet - I am sorry that your DH is sad right now. I think the 3D scan is a great idea but that seems like forever away to wait until then. I hope some of Dory's suggestions might help out. Maybe he is just catching up with the grieving as seeing you pg is reminding him of the hope that you felt when you were pg with Gus? I hope he feels better soon.

Gigi - love your Dr joke! And congrats on the new hair do. I did the same thing before we fell pg with Ryan and then spent months trying to grow it back for our wedding. I have been getting about 3 inches chopped off mine each week, so it is now about shoulder length rather than shoulder blade length. I had thought about going to bob on Saturday as well but I know DH prefers me with long hair so I am sneaking up on it! I am pleased that you are back TTC again and I have my fingers and toes crossed for you in your TWW. So sad to hear about your friend's phantom pg. Again, it so damn unfair!

SuzieQ - I had chicken pox at 22 so I know how you feel. I couldn't sleep for about 3 days in the end, so I got up about 2am and cleaned my whole house top to bottom until I collapsed in exhaustion. Then I slept for about 14 hours straight. I hope that doesn't happen to you! And yay for moving back to Perth - that's where my inlaws are I really like it there.

Dory - hi, hope you are doing well and your fur baby's op went well. They are so important and rely on us so much for their needs. I hope he/she is recovering beautifully and you are spoiling him/her rotten!

Hi to Angelic, lemonade, CharlieB, cmeglles, Powelly and everyone else.

AFM, I have kind of been in hiding waiting for this cycle to finish. I am CD33 today and am pretty sure that the clomid has thrown my body completely out of whack. I thought I was getting AF last weekend but still she hasn't arrived. I have occasional cramps/twinges but not even spotting as yet. I am having another b/t tomorrow so I guess I will know more then. My FS told me last week that she is going to be away from the end of this week until mid July. She is going to a big IVF conference in Rome apparently so there is no chance of us starting IVF any time soon until she gets back. All of the other decent FS in town are all going to the conference as well so not even the chance of a referral or locum. I actually feel pretty good about that so we will just keep doing b/t and monitor things while she is away. So DH and I have booked a weekend away in Sydney next month as a treat for us and a kind of birthday gift for me, so that is nice to have something to look forward too.

Anyway, gotta go as DH is calling me for dinner.

oxo

[TeniBear]

Don't worry crumpet, I know what you mean I expect I'll feel that way too once it happens for me *sigh* I know I'm not the only one going through these feelings, I suppose I just feel lonely a lot of the time and forget it...

AF is starting to get slower (thank goodness, I'm down to my last pad and need to wait for Scott to bring some home after work!)

[angelicdragon]

just a very quick hello coz it seems I am not allowed near my computer

[Samcougar]

Hello lovely ladies,

Sorry a selfish post today, I'm feeling a bit down. My best friends sister had their second bub, a beautiful little girl yesterday (I am wrapped for them don't get me wrong) but their first bub was due on the same day as Riley was and it kind of hurts that they have had another happy healthy little bubba and we haven't even been able to conecive our second little one.
I am now 3 weeks over due for AF and i'm not pg , it's just getting a bit frustrating. I haven't had an on time AF since before i had Riley. My MIL goes to a natrapath (I think thats spelt wrong ) anyway she suggested that i go to her also. I'm actually thinking that i might go, maybe she can help me?
Sorry for ranting i'm just sore and sorry for myself, I sprained my ankle at hockey training last night and can't get a dr's app till tomorrow (luckly i don't think its broken, but its bloody sore!)

Gosh i read that back to myself and i do sound like a wah wah!! Sorry just need to vent!
I hope you are all well.

[Gigi1]

Bec- Vent all you like hun. We are listening and understand. Hope you ahve a better day tomorrow. I am so sorry today is so hard. I an thinking of you. It is really difficult being pulled from their happiness and your own sadness. That speaks to me atm. I have fertile people and babies around me too! Big hugs hun and hope you find answers at the natropath. I find natural help a real benefit as far as regulating life. xoxo

[Samcougar]

OMG!!! Out of sheer frustration this arvo, after not having AF for 7 weeks I POAS for the 10th time, I fully expected a BFN BUT I have a faint BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG I can't believe it!!! I think i may have ovulated very late (I did have my suspisions) OMG . I shouldn't get this excited but OMG!!! I went to the drs today to have them look at my ankle and they wanted to send me for an xray but i got home and called the xray place and cancelled it, it just didn't feel right to have one. Maybe this is why! I will test again in a couple of days, I'm praying that it's right and that beautiful line gets stronger. OMG!!!