Chris, so well put. Thinking of you too hun...TWW can be a trial.
Teni, I am sorry hun that another cycle has let you down. I often fall into the hole where you find yourself now and I have past DD's anniversary. It is still so raw for you. I still find myself overwhelmed with grief sometimes and it feels like yesterday. I can only imagine how you must be feeling right now. I know we are all different but sadly we share something horrible- an understanding.
I am so sorry it is a hard day for you. Keep your hope and if it evades you today, know that somehow it will return. Thinking of you. xoxo

AFM- CD17 and amidst TWW. I am very nervous but also excited...kind of equal servings of both. Every now and then one will tip the scales and they seem to take turns. I am not sleeping well at all and find myself all over the shop.
My dear friend who has lost many bubs in first tri has just found out that her 8 week pregnancy is a Phantom. I don't understand fully how they work but she now finds herself yet again in familar shoes waiting for her body to miscarry. They are both devastated and grieving. God i wish life weren't so cruel. Sometimes there is just no rhyme or reason to break a heart. I am gutted for them and it leaves me in familiar shoes hoping that if and when i fall pregnant, i don't want my news to hurt anyone i love or care for. Her last loss was a month before we fell preg with DD. I silently thought that her body and spirit introduced our DD before she came to us. That she gave us the greatest gift of all. She had once or twice said to us that she wish she could sarrogate for us and maybe in some cosmic way she did. She has two beautiful children 14 and 10 but her family feels incomplete. I think it is magical and incredible a woman and a man can have such strong intuition to just know that is so. Hmmm...life, a full on journey.

Going to see Train this weekend which shoud be fun. DH has only one day off this week.I have more photos to take this week and i have one more day to develop what i have so far while big w has a sale on. That should keep me busy for a TWW...without me delving into the world of planning a pregnancy's life too much. Here's hoping. xoxo