Suz - positive vibes my sweet... all coming your way.... thanks for checking up on me too. It absolutely blows my mind that those numbers apply to me.
Gigi - I hear you so much. I can feel your emotions about having something very personal invaded. Don't worry about what they thought.... you were just being protective of your DD. People who love you will accept that.
Powelly - still thinking of you.
Chris - good to hear that things went so well and that so far two of your care providers are going to work in collaboration with each other. Yeah. Hope those pain meds are still working and you are recovering well.
Kateo and Ms tess - how are you doing?
AFM had my great nieces christening on sunday. it was nice. but I was struck by an unexpected wave of tears. just glad I was on my way back from the loo at the time. So I remembered and rejoiced the infinite beauty of my angels, had some quiet me time and then on with the show... I was a godmother after all. I suppose I didn't want to spoil it for my nephew and his partner by making it about me, when it was about their little daughter. It was weird being with all those peopl but good to see my Mum, Step dad and Brother... guess I am a bit like Gigi? And I am out of practice, what with being at home mostly on my own with the kitties. Oh excitement plus - only 3 more sleeps til my fur baby comes home from his 3 week sojourn at the vets. I am sooooo excited. I hope he doesn't resent me too much and give me the cold shoulder when he comes home..... but not to worry I will work him into kitty kat contentment! (ie food and cuddles)
Dory, you did a magical job hun at having a moment and letting the show go on. I tried to explain to my SIL today that dealing with infertility can be likened to having a disability in a way. You have to manage it, learn to live with it, consider it everytime you go out and about. Losing a child certainly exacerbates it 10 fold. People forget it is something we live with for the rest of our lives, not just an experience that happened a while back. I think that is why people sometimes think we 'hold on' to the pain and sadness...No, we live with it, it follows us, it is not for attention, or self pity. It is something we learn to manage. I was saying my SIL...I have had to find my trust in life again. I think I am pretty close to it now. I am learning to trust the universe again...but there will be hell to pay if my faith is taken for granted again.xoxo
AFM- Well it has been an interesting couple of days. I have written it in my blog so I will be brief here. Had a bit of a spin out....OVcaught me un awares on CD9. VERY early for me and I found myself having similar thoughts to Suz...but my lining needs more time!
I have no idea what was happening. I have had no Ov pain as per usual. CM was watery and not much of it But cervix was well and truely open with EWCM in small quantitiy...so What the hell.... we dtd etc and again for good measure and cause it was so much fun the first time...and I went mad trying to work it all out. Had a great night actually besides the analysing!
So... the line on the OPK was so dark, as dark as the indicator line...I just don;t know when it started being so dark. I only started testing that day-CD9. Anyway, what will be will be. I kind of feel good about it all, sychronicity and all. We felt like getting up to mischeif which is always a good sign.
Tomorrow, gardening if weather allows. DH is off and then we get to play Cranium over at my SIL and bros house. Should be a fun night and a good distraction. xoxoxo Fingers are crossed.
Can I ask a quicky? Do you have to wait for a period after m/c to ttc? The doc said to wait for one cycle but I have heard differing opinions. I'm thinking I'll wait but what are your thoughts/experiences?
Powelly, Hun i have heard both sides of the fence. One saying it is good to let your mind and womb heal and a cycle come back into synch ...and the other that essentailly supports that if you are not ready for pregnancy, you won't fall pregnant. I think you should follow your gut on this one....My opinion love.
BEst wishes hm xoxo
Thanks Gigi! What would I do without you :-) My heart is saying wait, to have correct LMP etc. I think I'll enjoy a few wines in the next couple of weeks and then start a big TTC health kick! Gotta be positive don't we.
Sounds like you may have got the right time. Fingers crossed for you! I love when things happen out of the blue. I always think things happen for a reason. Good luck.
Hi to all. Sorry I haven't done personals. I'm thinking of you all, hoping the pregnant ladies are well and keeping sane and the TTC'ers are going to get a BFP this month! We'll be rejoining end August/early Sep!
Powelly - my obs gave the go ahead to try straight away after Amelia and she was born a few weeks gestation after your beloved son. Basically, I was healthy and emotionally ready to try. Guess DH had to be too. LOL. After Nicholas and Sophie my obs recommended waiting, but we knew we both needed to wait - for both emotional and physical healing and also to give us the chance to do some more investigations as to possible causes.
If you are ready to try again, and no physical reasons not to delay, then get on the TTC rollercoaster.
Gigi - you are so profound and so spot on. With both infertility and the death of a child, the sadness and pain remain life long. You don't get over it, just some days it's more at the front of your consciousness than other days, but it's never far away and the love and pain are always in our hearts. I am sorry that O caught you unawares...... hope you got to do some gardening. Could you send me some of your green thumb? I am hopeless. I like to mow the lawn, and smell the muraya flowers but that's the extent of it for me.
Dory, LOL...my green thumb. You would laugh. I sound so green don't I. Truth is, it is all intention. I try my best and with each project i hope it lasts longer than the last. This time I am trying to set up our courtyard...Will type later on that once I have got a few things done. But hun. I very much rely on my loving husband to pick up where I fail. He waters more often than I do. Sad really, cause i want to be better at it. I think I get bored. I do crave the garden and blossoms, green and calm it brings often. We are not all that different. lol xoxo Will be back later.
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