Chez - I am so glad you were with your Mum and could get her to the hossy - it's scary for everyone. Being in Hossy for unexpected events brings its own trauma as does getting adjusted to the hossy environment. I spent a lot of time in ICU with my bro last year and it is very confronting, but after a while that alien environment becomes almost a natural one. Have to say I don't miss it now I don't have to go there. Hope you and your Mum are going ok and that you're not too stressed about TTC testing.
Susie - glad to hear some optimism in your post....and that your surgery went well and you are recovering. The optimism of your surgeon must be nice to have.
Gi - thinking of you.
Powelly - good luck with this cycle - it's good to have a break sometimes.
AFM - close but so far away. I have been having a really tough time the past couple of days - really weepy, not coping with little things, not wanting to go out at all... but have forced myself to go out once or twice on short adventures and today managed to do some thinking and have a bit more of a grip on why I was feeling the way I was. It was pretty complex and also linked with my grief. Anyway, since having a mini epiphany about it all, I feel a bit better and less glum. Which is a relief as I am not normally a really weepy person. Poor DH has been valiantly trying to support me but it's hard for him to do that properly when I didn't know what was going on myself. Take care my lovelies and I hope to share some good news with you soon.
Oh Dory, any "normal" pregnant woman would feel that way this close the the big day, weepy, excited, nervous, scared, tired, to name but a few emotions that aren't helped by the last massive surges of pregnancy hormones. But for us women, we have the added burden of grief and panic. All I can say is try to think positive.
Visualise your bub entering the world, into your arms, that first time you gaze into their eyes, smell their skin, hear their meowing cries. Whilst doing this, take slow deep breaths, in two three... out two three.... I'm sure you'll be amazing and I wish you all the best in the next few days. Big hugs
Powelly - you're right and that visual image and those thoughts are just so beautiful...thankyou... and the good thing is, I already know those feelings, and the love I had for my babies at their birth... imagine how amazing it will be this time around? As you can see I am in a much better place... thank goodness - I didn't much like that other one. But it is good to know it's "normal", whatever that is.
Dory- I have been thinking about you a lot on and off today. Hope all is good.
Suzie- I hope the post surgery results are good.......
Powelly- good luck hope your TWW meets a BFP.........Love your words to Dory, I will try and pos visualize too.....
Chez- good spotting with your mum....I hope she's OK. I hope your aligning with your donor works....how exciting!
AFM no AF as yet....NOT testing as I am enjoying not being sad because I'm not pregnant. IVF starts this week but only when and "if" AF arrives.....arrrrgh......
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