Chez - I am so glad you were with your Mum and could get her to the hossy - it's scary for everyone. Being in Hossy for unexpected events brings its own trauma as does getting adjusted to the hossy environment. I spent a lot of time in ICU with my bro last year and it is very confronting, but after a while that alien environment becomes almost a natural one. Have to say I don't miss it now I don't have to go there. Hope you and your Mum are going ok and that you're not too stressed about TTC testing.

Susie - glad to hear some optimism in your post....and that your surgery went well and you are recovering. The optimism of your surgeon must be nice to have.

Gi - thinking of you.

Powelly - good luck with this cycle - it's good to have a break sometimes.

AFM - close but so far away. I have been having a really tough time the past couple of days - really weepy, not coping with little things, not wanting to go out at all... but have forced myself to go out once or twice on short adventures and today managed to do some thinking and have a bit more of a grip on why I was feeling the way I was. It was pretty complex and also linked with my grief. Anyway, since having a mini epiphany about it all, I feel a bit better and less glum. Which is a relief as I am not normally a really weepy person. Poor DH has been valiantly trying to support me but it's hard for him to do that properly when I didn't know what was going on myself. Take care my lovelies and I hope to share some good news with you soon.