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Susie Q - oh sweetie.... I am so sorry that you got news that devastated you so much..... big hug my sweet. Give yourself time to adjust to the new blimp as you're still in shck and it's raw now. And then do as you do, research the topic, ask questions and give yourself time to process everything. Please don't feel that you have to leave here. This particular thread is my spiritual home on BB, mostly because of the amazing women who honour me by sharing their journey's. At this time in your life, I would be so sad that you didn't have what little support we can provide. But if you feel you have to move on, I want to thank you, from the bottom of my heart for all of the support and friendship you have so generously offered to me in my bleakest and darkest hours and also the odd wit and sense of humour you have offered on those "good" days. You will never be far from my heart or my prayers. Go gently my friend.
Kateo - ashermans syndrome is where fibroids/scar tissue adheres to the lining of the uterus... it is thought that the scaring can develop as a result of D&C's, but I am not sure if there are other potential causes. It can range from mild to severe. It affects the embies ability to implant in the uterus and there are other complications. Here is a link to a support group if you wanted to read more... Ashermans Online Community - provides information and support for Asherman's Syndrome, intrauterine adhesions/scarring, or related problems
And thanks for your support. Dr's app went ok. Not pre-eclampsia yet, but have all the little tell tale symptoms, just not serious enough yet, so traces of protein in my urine, oedema, visual disturbances, headahces, grumpy ( not like me at all) and slightly higher BP but not enough to be a "real concern, but enough to get some advice to take it easy and watch the symptoms. LOL about getting enough mobility in due course.
Gi - I wanted to write yesterday and tell you I was so sad to hear you were having a rough day. I was too. The demons I was fighting were pretty overwhelming, but then I managed to find a way through, which is good for me. I hope today has been a better day for you. Hugs my friend.
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Oh dear, I just read over my post again to Suzie and I fear i was a bit overboard and sad. I think i just let my head race ahead three steps too. Sorry hun. I know you will handled this far better than I. Dory...calms me down like no mans business. It is lovely to have a friend whose words say....SLoooww down chicka. One step at a time and all will be fine. Adjust, regroup, be kind and be strong.
Dory, glad you are feeling bit better today hun. Those symptoms seem a bit sucky. I am sure you are handling it like a goddess! and not a Diva!
Stay put sweet cheeks....you are cooking a bubba!
Love to all. xoxo
CD10 for me today and I am a bit pensive today. Going through a few boxes of books and things to put in our cupboard. Old things in old boxes gets me pensive.
xoxoxo
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Gi - you have the same effect on me. LOL. I had all those questions for Suz, but you had asked them.
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Dory, your comments are always so on the mark. I was completely in shock. In my last post I probably wrote down about 0.1% of what was actually going through my brain.
Gigi thank you for your concern sweetie. Ah, where to start with answering your questions. My daughter was born premature due to complexities surrounding the twin. Well this is what they think happened. We found out at the 12 week scan that there was a second sac/foetus which probably stopped developing around the 6/7 week mark. They said the body usually absorbs this and I may get some bleeding. I did get some bleeding at the 13 week mark and then it stopped unfortunately it started again at 17 weeks and never stopped. Bubs was doing well though and I was told that some people just bleed through preg. We had numerous scans and nobody could tell us why I was bleeding other than the twin reabsorbtion. Anyway, I went into pre-term labour due to an infection. They can't tell me what sort of infection it was other than they could find no 'bad' bacteria. The consultant's explantion was that sometimes with the bleeding, the good bacteria have a nice warm environ in which to grow and multiply and they overwhelm the system. It is the only explanation I have but at least it is an explanation and something which they believe will not happen again. I had a manual extraction of placenta and then 2 further ERPC's for retained products 4 months later. Probably the last one caused the damage as the consultant did tell me he had to get a bit agressive in order to remove the last of the RP's which were firmly attached to the wall. He was the one that mentioned Asherman's to me. The stats say that 40% of Asherman's cases develop from D&C's 2-4 weeks after delivery. Wish I was in the other 60%!
No other D&C's. Had an emerg c-section for DS as he was undiagnosed footling breech. Anyway, that is another story. But my periods returned after bfeeding fine so I suspect that didn't cause any problems. I think any scarring would have shown up on the u/s with my daughter when my uterus got bigger.
Anyway, I am in the best of hands here. I am seeing what is called an A-lister (the asherman's group rate surgeons) here in London (DH and I have been here since 2001 - how time flies!). I am going privately so I can get immediate treatment though luckily my DH has private insurance through work. There is only one A-lister in Oz and he is in Sydney so a long expensive way from Perth so I am hoping I can be treated successfully here. The other good thing about my A-lister is that he worked in Perth for a year so knows people who could perhaps assist in my recovery. Don't know, will have to see what happens, hopefully if I need two or more surgeries I can get them all done here before Xmas. Otherwise we may have to rethink our timing on coming home. So everything in my life is completely up in the air at the moment. At DH's insistence, I am trying not to stress out too much as I just have to wait until surgery. There is a fantastic international and UK asherman's community which are an incredible support. I have learned so much just in the last few days from reading others experiences. I can only hope I can provide an inspirational story for others. Fingers crossed.
I hope that answers everything Gigi. I definitely feel calmer after my extensive research. It is just out of my hands now and I have to hope this surgeon is as good as everyone says he is.
At the moment I am on a different path and as you can imagine talking/reading about TTC would be a bit much for me. Oh how I wish for a TWW now!! But I will pop in from time to time to make sure you are all doing OK. I will definitely be stalking Dory for her birth announcement. I will let you know how I get on though....maybe a few days later though after I have processed it and am no longer in shock!!!!
Good luck all....and I wish with all my heart that if or when I do return that none of you are here and you are all in the preg thread. Lots of babydust.
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Hello Im Linda i havent been on for a while.I was taking a break from clomid.Now im seeing a new doctor.He seems to know what hes doing. Last saturday i had to get a trigger shot and im also taking clomid too.The doctor found 1 big folical the egg!! So i was just wondering if anyone had concived while on clomid and and had a trigger shot.We have been trying to concive since last oct when i had my misscarriage. Its been a long journey.Im in the 2 week waiting period.Crossing my fingers.Baby dust all over for everyone!! bye
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Linda - welcome, but it's sad that to be here you've lost a precious little one. Congrats on the follie - as my FS said once, "go home now and ravage your husband". Hope you caught that eggie. I can't help with similar experiences with clomid or trigger shots. Hope you get to keep the crazy lady at bay during your tww and your bfp is coming up.
Suz - you know what? Your post felt so much calmer, I will miss you but understand that you're on a different path right now. Go well my friend.
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Hello dory, Thank you for your thoughts. I had the time intecourse to do.I So im hoping it works this month. bye,linda
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Hello Ladies
I have been stalking for a while now but have not been ready to pop my head in til now.
I had my 4th miscarriage (in 13 years) in June. I was meant to be 11.5 weeks but baby had passed away at 9 weeks. Two of my miscarriages were at about 5 weeks and the other one was another missed m/c at 9 weeks (baby had passed at 6 weeks).
I also have had two beautiful babies in between all of these losses so i know (and am so grateful!) that my body CAN do it. I have had some testing to see if i have some other problem but so far everything has come back normal.
We are TTC again. My DH is just about to start working away so it may prove difficult to get the timing right but we will see how we go. I was a bit worried about Asherman's as well Suzie, as after my last D&C they said i had a small fibroid on my uterus and they could also see some "white spots" which they couldn't explain and didn't go into further.. i don't think they were very experienced sonographers so, after doing some reading, i think i should probably get that looked at again.
I am so sorry to read of all of your losses and really hope that in time you all have beautiful, healthy bubbas in your arms. Life is so cruel sometimes but it also can be so rewarding.
Goodluck to you all and i look forward to getting to know you.
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Stoked - Welcome. Hope your stay on the TTC rollercoaster this time around is brief and you get your bfp and get to hold your new bubba in your arms soon.. and I am sorry for the loss of your babies.
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Oh Suz, That is much calmer...and i feel calmer for you too. Thank goodness you feel supported. I think i got a bit mad for you. I was angry that you are going through this after everything. I think you know exactly what you need. You are so right...i forgot about that side of things...the experts available. And wow a connection to Perth too. That is synchronicity at it's best. I am sure you are in brilliant hand and I can't wait to go on the journey with you at another time. I too foudn it hard to be in here at some points when everyone was falling pregnant so easily. So I totally understand hun. I wish you the very best and hope you have beautifully healing surgeries. I hope you get to go through another pregnancy. Good LUck sweety.
Boy I miss the UK and so glad you are in London. Oh and ...mega cool re the private cover...we didn't have that however in emergency situations...you tend to get the best- as all the drs have to do time with NHS if i remember rightly.
Good luck sweety and catch you soon in anther time and place...xoxoxo again apologies for my little freak out!
Stoked- Welcome hun and so sorry to find you here. Sorry you had to say goodbye to your bubbas too soon. I see you had a homebirth- I am envious. How lucky you are. I hope you are not here for long hun. Welcome and good luck. Hope you also find some answers re the ashermans and white spots. That sounds s bit different hey?
Linda- Sorry you have had such a hard time and such heartache. I can't help you with any advice for those sorts of things. My experiences have been different. But I wish you much luck and may you have the baby you deserve hun.
Dory- love, hope you are feeling well today and BP is behaving itself. xoxo
AFM- CD 11 EWCM present and all action stations in this house. Fingers cross full moon has some special magic for us this month. xoxoxo
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Gi - baby dancing in the light f the full moon.... superb. Loving day 11 and the EWCM.... all the best and thinking of you both. Now don't be on here too much when you have something much more important to be doing.....hehe
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Thanks for the welcome :D
Gigi, my homebirth was the most amazing experience of my life! I would love for every woman to be able to experience it! However, due to a big bleed and retained products after having my bub, and also retained products AFTER my d&c after the m/c, i may not be able to have another homebirth, but i have my fingers crossed that i will be accepted into the program again and that eveything will go well. I couldn't imagine having a baby in the hospital again.. seems a bit strange now! Goodluck with the BDing! With the full moon tonight might just be the night! Fingers crossed..
I have to say to you and Dory, you are both lovely ladies, you always know the right words to say xx
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Hi Girls and I will give more to personals a little bit later. Sorry for the rush.
DORY...Thinking of you and your beautiful Sophie today. You have been on my mind and we will light a little candle that will burn all day for her. I hope you are doing ok and resting with a big cake in front of you, a birthday tune and a few tears of joy and sadness. I bet your little angel was sitting on your pillow this morning with a huge grin on her face...knowing how special her mumma is. I know today must have such a mix of feelings for you...and i am thinking of you sweety. oxxo
Will be back later for all else. I want to ravage my husband one more time before he goes to work!
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Gi - thanks sweetie, that you thought of us today means a lot. And hope both you and DH enjoyed the ravashing...
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Gi - how are you going? Still hanging on here it seems, 39 big ones ( weeks) ... I live in a constant state of anticipation.... it's weird being normal now... if something happens it's not all an emergency, unlike before, and things could even have a happy ending. From memory... you didn't think that this month was a good one? Let me know - I think of you often.
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Hello ladies - just popped in to see if there was any news with Dory but I see that you haven't quite popped yet!!
Had my surgery last Tues and everything seemed to go well. I had adhesions in the middle of my uterus but a cavity above and below (a little like an hourglass). The before and after xrays my surgeon showed me were amazing - I now have a lovely single cavity. Unfortunately the opening to my right tube is blocked. He kind of mentioned that this might correct itself?? Will have to pursue this with him at my follow up but didn't seemed overly concerned and said as long as I have one functioning that is OK! So now on hormone therapy to improve endometrium - which hasn't been too bad so far - I haven't turned into a screaming lunatic anyway. He said my endo looked OK especially at the top where he would hope implantation would occur. I have been feeling pretty positive as my surgeon seemed pretty positive. But I don't want to get my hopes up too much as there is a real possibility that the adhesions may reform and more surgery. There was just a moment before they put me under when I just thought 'I hate this - enough!'. That is the fourth time in 7 months. But I just have to hope that with a bit of luck that was the last one. Just a lot of waiting at the moment which is much worse than any TWW I've had in the past!!! Anyway, thinking of all you girls. Hope to see some BFP's next time I pop in!
Babydust to all.
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Hi all
I heard from a friend that she had lost all of her PMs on BB but didn't realise it was affecting the forums as well.
So no idea where everyone is at... must be my bad memory! But I will try some personals anyway.
Dory - wow 39 weeks! Amazing! Have you got everything ready for your new bub? I am quietly confident that everything will go perfectly. Can't wait to read your BA.
SuzieQ - that's great news about your surgery. I haven't heard anything about a blocked tube fixing itself so can't help you there. You poor thing - 4 surgeries in 7 months - yikes! You must be really sick of the inside of hospitals. I wish you lots of good things with your lovely uterus!
Gigi - sorry I can't remember if this cycle was looking good or not. I hope you are doing well and staying calm and positive. It will happen for you one day hun, I just hope that it is soon! Take care.
Hi to everyone else - hope you are all well.
AFM, I am with my mum ATM. She is in hospital recovering and having heaps of tests after a series of mini strokes on Sunday evening. Luckily I was with her and noticed the signs and got her to hospital straight away. So this week has kind of turned pear shaped for me, but thank goodness all of my testing for this cycle was finished early otherwise I would be very stressed. Nothing much else going on, just waiting now for this period and then onto BCP to align my cycle with the donor's.
Take care all and babydust to everyone.
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Chez - OMG hope your Mum is ok. That must have been horrific. Have they gotten to the bottom of it yet? Hope she recovers quick and they can find what is causing all those ministrokes.
Sorry for lack of personals. I've been missing in action for awhile now. To be honest, it was lovely having a month off TTC, not worrying or thinking about every niggle! We are ttc this month and ov'd last weekend so now into the TWW somewhere around CD21. I've had some cramping like last time and freaked out last night that I'm going to miscarry again. Trying to stay positive though and will see how we get on. The ov kits I used this time worked like a charm!
Hope you are all well and look forward to hearing of some BFP's soon! Have a great weekend!
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Chez - I am so glad you were with your Mum and could get her to the hossy - it's scary for everyone. Being in Hossy for unexpected events brings its own trauma as does getting adjusted to the hossy environment. I spent a lot of time in ICU with my bro last year and it is very confronting, but after a while that alien environment becomes almost a natural one. Have to say I don't miss it now I don't have to go there. Hope you and your Mum are going ok and that you're not too stressed about TTC testing.
Susie - glad to hear some optimism in your post....and that your surgery went well and you are recovering. The optimism of your surgeon must be nice to have.
Gi - thinking of you.
Powelly - good luck with this cycle - it's good to have a break sometimes.
AFM - close but so far away. I have been having a really tough time the past couple of days - really weepy, not coping with little things, not wanting to go out at all... but have forced myself to go out once or twice on short adventures and today managed to do some thinking and have a bit more of a grip on why I was feeling the way I was. It was pretty complex and also linked with my grief. Anyway, since having a mini epiphany about it all, I feel a bit better and less glum. Which is a relief as I am not normally a really weepy person. Poor DH has been valiantly trying to support me but it's hard for him to do that properly when I didn't know what was going on myself. Take care my lovelies and I hope to share some good news with you soon.
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Oh Dory, any "normal" pregnant woman would feel that way this close the the big day, weepy, excited, nervous, scared, tired, to name but a few emotions that aren't helped by the last massive surges of pregnancy hormones. But for us women, we have the added burden of grief and panic. All I can say is try to think positive.
Visualise your bub entering the world, into your arms, that first time you gaze into their eyes, smell their skin, hear their meowing cries. Whilst doing this, take slow deep breaths, in two three... out two three.... I'm sure you'll be amazing and I wish you all the best in the next few days. Big hugs
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Powelly - you're right and that visual image and those thoughts are just so beautiful...thankyou... and the good thing is, I already know those feelings, and the love I had for my babies at their birth... imagine how amazing it will be this time around? As you can see I am in a much better place... thank goodness - I didn't much like that other one. But it is good to know it's "normal", whatever that is.
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Dory- I have been thinking about you a lot on and off today. Hope all is good.
Suzie- I hope the post surgery results are good.......
Powelly- good luck hope your TWW meets a BFP.........Love your words to Dory, I will try and pos visualize too.....
Chez- good spotting with your mum....I hope she's OK. I hope your aligning with your donor works....how exciting!
AFM no AF as yet....NOT testing as I am enjoying not being sad because I'm not pregnant. IVF starts this week but only when and "if" AF arrives.....arrrrgh......
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Kateo - FX crossed for IVF - even though that means waiting for AF....
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Dory thanks but I have FX'ed for no AF and no IVF.........you never know.........
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Ah ha - that is a very cunning plan and I like it:)
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Glad you got the reference....:P I had never watched any Black Adder until a few years ago when DH sat down with me and we made our way through all of them. I don't mind it, but I don't get the yelling. I am not really a Monty Python fan I have to say. Guess it's just not to my sense of humour.
Have you written any more poetry lately?
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Hi ladies
Just popping in to check in on everybody, particularly Dory! Glad to hear you are doing well hun. Go the visualisation - I really believe it works. You're so close now I am getting excited for you!
Kateo - I have FX'd for you too that you don't need IVF - it's happened to plenty of couples that their cycle was cancelled due to a natural pg! GL hun.
Powelly - hope you're staying sane during the TWW! Have my FX'd for you too (I'm gonna run out of fingers :D )
Suzie - hope you're recovering from surgery well, both physically and mentally and that you get some awesome results.
Gigi - how are you doing hun? Thinking of you.
A big thanks to everyone for your kind words of support about my mum. She is out of hospital now and doing better.
AFM, I'm back home and things are slowly starting to return to normal. There was so much to catch up on at work today, and I still don't feel that I have completely caught up but I think I have dealt with the important stuff and everything else can just wait a bit longer. Work has been understanding about me taking time off which is great but it doesn't remove the work that piles up while I am away. :wall:
No real change for me, still waiting for AF to arrive which given my mood swings today is likely to be soon. I can't get used to the waiting - some days disappear by really quickly and other days like today just seem to drag on, and on... It still feels like ages away until our first decent holiday this year which will be at Christmas which I am really looking forward to - 10 days in a beach house with the family - should be great! And if I am lucky enough to be pg then I will be enjoying the relaxed lifestyle of being at the beach and being able to swim, and walk, and just chill. That is my Christmas wish - I hope it comes true!
I will update you when I know more. Take care everyone.
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Hi eveeryone....So sorry. I am stupid crazy busy atm and so sorry i haven't been in. I accidently went into the wrong thread yesterday and got all disorientated. I am chasing my tail atm and I will be in very soon.
AFM- CD13 after a horrid AF last week. I will catch you up but all is well...NOT pregnant!
DOry- love...been thinking of you sweet and very excited for you.
Suzie- great news the surgery is over hun. xoxo
God i am really not able to be 100% and with it. Will be back when I can. xoxoxo Lov eyou all!
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Gi, sorry to hear you had a doozy of a month! They are the worst! At least they end. Be kind to yourself over the next few days until the hormones settle.
AFM! Argh! I am 11DPO and have had some brown spotting this morning, and AF isn't due til Sunday. I have been a teary mess all week, with swollen boobs. But now I'm thrown! I am really anxious and uptight. I really hate this rollercoaster some days!
Sorry for the vent. I just hate not knowing where I'm at.
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Thanks Dory! How is everyone doing.Im still in the waiting period right now.It seems to be going ok,trying to stay busy and not thinka bout it too much. bye,linda:noaf:
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Well I got my BFP yesterday and a darker line again this morning!!! :p
I'm excited and it feels right this time but I'm still very nervous as I still have cramps on and off. The spotting has stopped so it must have been implant bleeding. Gosh I hope this one sticks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Congrats Powelly!!!! Way to go hun! I had AF like cramping for 2 weeks after my FET so it was the embie latching on. I still felt like AF was gonna come even though I had a strong BFP!! GL with your pg hun, wishing you all the very best!!
GL Linda with your cycle, hope you get your BFP too!
Hi to all, and big congrats to Dory again, enjoy your precious baby cuddles & give your little Hannah a big cuddle from me!
B xxx
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Powelly...that vent must have done you some good hun. hat is fantastic news. Good on you! You can breath a little easier now hun. Go forth and conquer! xoxox
Oh it looks like i need to go and see birth announcements.
Hi all, still too busy to be in here for any length of time. xoxo
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Hi all
Powelly - congratulations hun! That's fantastic news - I am so excited for you :dance:
Gigi - sorry to hear that you have had a tough month hun. Hope this next one is better for you. Take care :hug:
Linda - hope you are doing ok and that AF has stayed away.
Dory - congratulations hun. Will have to duck over into BA to check out the official news (thanks Beata!)
AFM, day 2 today which is great. One more step closer! Now to get aligned with my donor. Keep your FX for us!
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HI All,
Powelly- I am doing a happy BFP dance for you ..........go on, hang in little one!
Gigi- Look after you.......
Linda- I hope it works. Keep positive thinking.
Dory- YYYYYAAAAAAHHHHOOOOO. Hannah is a LOVELY name and I am sure she's beautiful. Enjoy those cuddles and have a wonderful set of first times with your girl.
AFM- Tears and upset. CD 35 & AF arrived today. Before my baby I was 28 days on the dot. Last month was 33 days , now this arrrrggghhhh. I didn't test as I was enjoying the fantasy. I guess I am meant to be a parent without children. I decided to give IVF a miss this month. Hubby has hardly spoken to me. I feel like I've really let him down..........I am going to have to try again.....One more natural month then IVF. I am only 7 months since my Ellen died and I really am not up to this but too old to wait.......
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Sneaks in..... Huge Congrats Powelly!! How exciting!! :happyforyou:
and a big hello to everyone else and sending you all lots of :pink-babydust: :bluedust: Sneaks out......:hug:
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Oh Kate hun, I am so sorry. I hear your pain hun. It is horrible to have the pressure over you and be needing more time. Take a couple of days holiday from thinking about it all...build up your reserves again hun and then go for gold!
Thinking of you. xoxo
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Thanks all for your lovely messages and good wishes. I'm still not celebrating just yet, might wait til I have this bub in my arms before I start getting excited :-)
Kate - pressure is awful. I have time on my side yet felt the intense pressure to give my son a sibling before he was too "old". I know that sounds silly but the pressure is real. I couldn't imagine how hard it must be for you having to push ahead when emotionally you aren't ready. Be gentle to yourself.
Gi, I'm sorry you are having a tough month. We all have em but it doesn't make it any easier does it.
Chez - Good luck and fingers x'd for you!
To everyone I have missed, hugs and thinking of you.
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Hi ladies,
Sorry I was so hasty in my last post, here goes some more persies....
Gigi, I'm sorry the wich arrived!!! Hoping next month is 'it' hunni!! Hope you're feeling a bit better now :) big hugs xxxxx
Linda, GL in your 2 WW!!
Cherryl, keeping my fingers crossed for you too hun. Every day you are one step closer to realising your dream. Can't wait for it to happen! You go girl!!!!
Kate, I'm sorry the ugly wich arrived :( If IVF is the only option, so be it hun. Without IVF I wouldn't have my beautiful bubbie. I found the treatment pretty straight forward, I had a much harder time accepting it was our only option and we couldn't have babies naturally. Big hugs hun XX
Hi to everyone else in here, spreading lots and lots of baby dust for everyone!!
B xxx
