TTC AFTER Late Loss/Recurrent Miscarriage/ Stillbirth 2010

[Gigi1]

Blog is on BB hun. Sweety, you don't have to PM me hun unless you need or want to one day. Just letting you know I am there. xoxo

[Miss.B]

Hi lovely ladies,

Oh wow, congratulations Crumpet and CharlieB!! I am so thrilled for you ladies, and wish you a happy and healthy pg!!

Ladies, I'm sorry I don't pop in too much in here any more, but I do lurk from time to time. Always on the look out for the lovely BFPs!

Just quickly, as I haven't gone through all the posts, I'm sorry to hear that you're taking time off belly Gigi, but I totally understand and wish you all the very best in your TTC journey. Take care of yourself hun, and I pray that one day I'll see you in here reading all about your BFP. Big hugs to you hun

Cmeglles, thinking of you hun and sending you a huge hug

Big hello to everyone in here, and spreading lots of and

B xxx

[Lemonade]

Hi All,

SusieQ - thanks for the welcome. I understand the frustration of not being able to understand what is happening inside our bodies. I hope your cycle gets back to normal very soon.

Crumpet - sooooo exciting about BFP!!!! That's really fantastic news. Keep us updated. I'm glad the counselling went well. I've had a couple of sessions with a therapist and she has been amazing!

CharlieB - how's everything going? When are you going for your blood test? I am not able to PM on my account yet but I wanted to ask you something. would you mind emailing me on sweet_lemonade@y7mail.com

Dory - thanks for your feedback on the obs - your words of wisdom seem to always uplift this forum

Gigi - I wish you heaps of happy vibes. I'm sorry you're going to be away for a while but it seems everyone is so welcoming and supportive here, that I'm sure you know you will be welcomed when you want to pop in again

TeniBear - well done for going back to work. I found that it was such a welcome distraction for me. Our CEO's EA sits opposite me and she is very preggie. But hopefully she'll be going off soon so it won't be in my face the whole time. Besides that, it's been a good experience being back.

Aries - holding thumbs that your intuition is giving you the right O signals

cmeggles - you must have a wonderful tan now. I can only imagine how difficult your EDD must be - but it sounds like you spent it in a beautiful way. Sending you lots of BFP vibes

AFM: I'm a little freaked out now. We went to see the obs for our seven week follow-up appointment. She hasn't got all the results but there was some reason why this happened. Apparently baby had a tumour in the chest. The obs reckons it's one of those one in a billion things to happen but is still waiting on the final report for further answers. I guess I had convinced myself that we wouldn't find an answer (not sure if it's true but so many ppl told me that the chance of finding a cause was low). But now that we have a cause I'm not sure how I feel. Should I feel relieved that there was actually something serious that caused this to happen, concerned, worried, happy, sad. I guess in some ways it does make me feel better to know that my body was doing all the right things and there was nothing I couldn't have done to prevent this (at least as far as I know). It makes me more slightly more hopeful for next time but I'm still quite shaken. Hopefully we'll get the final results soon so we can move on.

[dory]

Lemonade - oh blossom. In time you will make some peace with the news, but for anyone it is shocking news and it is likely you will have some grieving to do. Give yourself time to work through the news.

I am so so sad for your little angel but you are right, it is rare, and for the future that is something to hold on to, but still doesn't take away how sad it is for your angel.

I understsand about at least being able to have some more confidence in your body which gives you some hope for next time. There is always hope - sometimes we just have to work harder to find it. It can be pretty elusive. Thanks too for your kind words. I don't try to be uplifting or anything, I am just me. Mostly happy go lucky but like with all of us on this journey, there are dark days and dark times.

Sorry taht you have to be sitting across from the heavily preggers EA. but like you said - she'll not be there soon.

Hi ho to everyone else. Thinking of you and sending you lots of love..... and positive vibes.

[CharlieB]

Hi everyone

cmeglles - welcome back! i really hope you had a relaxing break. Sorry you had such a sad day to come back to. What a lovely way to recognise the day, with the flowers you took in. I'm sure that meant alot to everyone.
I really hope the holiday brings you guys a BFP!! It worked for us!

beata - nice to hear from you, I hope everythings going well for you and little Cameron.

Lemonade - I've emailed you

crumpet - hope everythings going ok. any news on the job?

AFM - off to the docs tomorrow to get things confirmed, still completely disbelieving at this point.

Love to everyone,
xx

[SusieQ]

Well that's it, I'm out of here for the next couple of months. Looks like I am going in for a D&C either tomorrow or Tues depending on gyno schedule tomorrow. Retained placenta products - even though it has been nearly 3 months! And despite everything that I read, I didn't have any classic signs until the recent unusual bleeding. No infections etc etc

Anyway, as much as I hate hate hate the thought of any more people/objects invading my lady bits - I really want to get it over and done with tomorrow.

So no TTC until first period after D&C which I can only imagine will be more than a month or so away. Life just doesn't go to plan does it? We are all too aware of it in here.

Good luck to everyone. I may lurk once in a while just to see how you are all getting on.

[CharlieB]

SusieQ - I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I hope it all goes smoothly for you tomorrow and that it at least means that your body can return to normal cycles ASAP. I hope the time flies by til your first AF, look forward to seeing you back.

Aries - sorry I just realised I missed you before, completel unintentional I promise!!
Thanks for the congrats and the sticky vibes
I hope your cycle starts to make sense, in the meantime I hope that using your intuition brings you that BFP!

[dory]

Susie Q - Thinking of you today, especially. Recover and heal well my friend and look forward to seeing you back here when you on the tcc train.

Charlie - what time is your appointment?

Crumpet - how are you?

Aries - sending my love to you in advance of Wednesday. I don't usually post over the weekend and I have a pretty busy day Tuesday, so I won't get to send you my love and support when I want to, so it has to be now. Big hugs.

Hi to everyone else Lemonade, Cmeggles, Sam Cougar ( hope your butt is not too sore from hockey), and Gigi ( even though you're on a break, I still think of you). Sorry if I have missed anyone else, it's not intentional.

[crumpet]

hi girls!!!!

just popping in by to say a massive hello to you all!!!

no news on the job yet so im thinking i lost out on that one!!!

feeling ok, tired and a bit of nausea here and there but all good so far!!

thinking of u all, big hugs to those that need them!!

xoxoxo

[angelicdragon]

SusieQ I am so sorry you have been pushed back again. Is there a medical reason for waiting to TTC after a D&C? With every D&C I have had I was told there is no reason to wait. Usually it is only so for the record if you do get pg they have a cd1 to date with, but with scans nowadays that is no longer an issue as they can do a dating scan.

Crumpet congrats to you as well on your BFP Wonderful news to have 2 BFPs on the board so close together.

Dory how far along are you now? Maybe I should go check out the pg thread.

Gigi ((((hugs))))

Hi to everyone, just passing thru but have to head out the door.
Jude

[Chez67]

Hi ladies

Congratulations to Crumpet and CharlieB - that is fantastic news. I am very pleased for you both. I wish you a H&H pg!

CharlieB - how did the Drs appointment go? All good I hope!

Crumpet - sorry you haven't heard about the job. The market can be pretty tough at the moment. We have just interviewed for a vacancy in my area. We had several good applicants but we can't give the job to all of them unfortunately! And I am so pleased that you felt much better after your counselling session. Are you planning on going again?

Gigi - sorry to hear you won't be around so much anymore but completely understand. I wish you peace and love my friend.

SusieQ - sorry to hear about the D&C but completely understand you wanting to get it over and done with. 3 months is a long time for RPOC without symptoms. You are lucky you didn't get a nasty infection. And I agree with Angelic - my ob said we could start straight away without waiting for AF. Waiting really is about convenience for Drs about dates as far as I am aware. I hope everything goes well for you and you are back with us soon.

Lemonade - that must have been difficult news for you to hear about your baby. I hope you get more information from your ob soon to help ease your mind and you can move forward.

cmeglles - hope you had a lovely break in Bermuda. I so need a holiday right now so I am envious of you. Hope you brought back more than a tan with you and you have a BFP coming up soon!

TeniBear - going back to work was very hard for me too but I found it was a great distraction most of the time. None of my co-workers ever spoke to me about Ryan and I resented that initially but I understand why now. It is still hard to see pg women in my building every day - one has gone on mat leave today. I hope that one day soon that will be both us at our desks with our big bellies!

Aries - hope you are doing ok. Listening to your body sounds like the right thing to do. That is precisely what I am trying to do myself, although it still puzzles me about what's going on. I hope you get some answers soon, and a BFP!

Hi to Lemonade, AngelicDragon, samcougar, Blessedatlast and everyone else. There are so many of us in here at the moment I am having trouble keeping up!

AFM, it's been an emotional week for me. AF arrived on Sunday morning so I was able to get my day1 b/t done. You might remember a while ago I posted about being concerned that I was only O every 2nd month well it appears that is not the case. I seem to be Oing normally around day 12-15 and then the next month around day 5-6. And some cycles I am getting EWCM around day 4-6 and then the Fertility Monitor confirms O on day 12-15 without any EWCM. So this cycle I decided to do an OPK yesterday - strong test line, almost the same as the control line, and today - even darker test line so I am definitely Oing now. I will also use the Fertility Monitor to see if it thinks I am also O later in the cycle. The weird thing (if that isn't weird enough) is that my cycle lengths are all around 26-28 days long. Surely I am not O twice in one cycle? Or maybe the egg is growing and then it stops until mid cycle when it releases from the ovary? I have heard of IVF cycles where the egg just stops growing for a week so without any known reason. Bizarre. Anyway, my TCM is going to research it and I will talk to my FS when we see her in 2 weeks.

Anyway, gotta go and cook dinner. DH is on his way home from the airport.
Take care all
oxo

[CharlieB]

Hi everyone

Chez - I'm glad you posted, I was wondering how you were going. I'm so sorry that AF turned up, evil witch! I don't really have any advice about the strange O timing, but I guess it's good that it seems to be every month rather than every second?? I hope you can get some guidance from your FS .

SusieQ - not sure if you are reading but hope everythings ok and that you have had your D&C by now

cmeglles - how are you going? I hope you have gotten through your EDD. hope your surviving the 2WW!

Dory - I think you have a scan coming up?? Hope you're feeling ok about it.

Big hugs to Lemonade, Aries, Angelic, Crumpet, Gigi, Tenibear, Samcougar, blessed

AFM - I had my docs appointment, all routine. I have done one bloodtest for HCG and will do another next week to make sure it's increasing normally. No results yet.
I'm starting to get worried cause I have NO symptoms at all!!

Hope you all have a lovely weekend
xx

[blessedatlast]

Hi Ladies,
A big congratulations to Crumpet and CharlieB That is so awesome, I am so happy for you! (Even though I am a little jealous )

I am going ok. I moved twice in 4 days because the 1st place I moved into was DISGUSTING.. Really filthy and I was so unhappy there, so was my cat. I don't know what I was thinkng when I agreed to move in, I think I just wanted to get out of my current situatuion before I changed my mind! Anyway, I moved again and now I am a lot happier. Even though I HATE sharing.. I just can't afford to live on my own though.. It's so hard to break the habit of being in a relationship. Thinking, what am I going to have for dinner, instead of we.. It's hard to get used to and if I'm honest it was REALLY hard to let go of TTC.. I know it wasn't the right thing to do when our relationship was in trouble but still. I want a baby SO desperately and that is hard to let go of . I have gone off my herbs obviously, but I started spotting again so I might go back on them just for the mere fact of keeping the bleeding away. I will see how I go.. I am still doing my temps as I think it is good for me to try to see a pattern and let me know what is happening with my own body, even though I am not TTC.. Well ladies, thanks for listening, thanks for all your support.

[Lemonade]

Hi All,

Just a quick one to say a quick hello and hope you're having a good weekend.

Hopefully May will be a good month for all of us

I went and bought a new box of OPK's today so I'm all ready to catch that egg.

Will write more persies next week

xxx

[Lemonade]

One more thing, after my last visit with my obs, I'm just not feeling 100% happy. I have complete confidence in her as a doctor but just have my doubts about her understanding of my situation. I think she may be way too busy to give us the caring we need.

If any of you are in Sydney, can you recommend a good obs? I think it may be a good idea for us to start exploring other docs.

Thanks
xxx

[cmeglles]

Ok so much to say!
Again charlie B and crumpet congrats! Yay- I am so happy for you and may I say a tad bit jealous.....

SusieQ- How awful to have to start all over again. Hopefully the procedure is pretty painless. I am thinking of you.

Lemonade- I can't give you any OB recommendations, but I can totally understand how you are feeling. Your OB really hasnt seemes to be on top of anything. How frustrating. I am not the most patient person and the fact that you still don't have all the results must be really frustrating. (The autopsy on my DS was delayed getting back to us too and I was really frustrated about it). Sending you good luck with the hunt and TTC.

Blessedatlast- It sounds like things are going better for you. I am also sending you a It sounds like this move is allowing for healing and provide a great new start. You are so strong to have gone through with it. Maybe something to consider in the future would be IUI.....just a thought. I know it is probably way to soon to start thinking of that sort of a thing right now. You are in my thoughts and I am sending you lots of Please feel free to PM me whenever!

Dory- How are you doing? Feeling any better about history repeating itself? It sounds like things are going really well for you. Wonderful!

Beata- Thanks for the hugs and encouragement. it is nice to hear from you now and again. Please keep popping in!

Tenibear- It sounds like work was good for you. I have been trying to work and keep myself busy to not be so focused and worried about ttc. It seems to be working and my outlook is healthier, but it does make me tired! Sounds like your co-workers are great distractions, but unfortunately not in a good way. Argh- I can totally understand how some people can be frustrating, but it never seems to last too long. I hope the same is for you.

angelicdragon- Hi, how is it going with you? Seems to be busy, and I hope it is a good thing.

Chez- So sorry that AF arrived, and that things have been so difficult. I hope you get some answers soon on your wacky cycles. More importantly I hope those answers lead to a BFP. I have no idea if you can ovulate 2 in a cycle!I hope that you can find time to schedule a holiday if you can! It was so wonderful to get away from it all- including worrying about TTC. I feel heaps better.

Hi to Aries, Teagz and anyone who might be lurking that I missed

AFM- rough week. My EDD went better than expected, but made this week kind of hard. Sorry I haven't written much. The vacation really was nice. Unfortunately the weather was pretty cold and windy so I didn't get in much beach time, but just leaving home and not worrying about work and TTC was really great. We were on holiday when I O. Today is CD28 and no sign of AF. I have had a few elevated temps mixed in with reg ones, and was hoping it might be a triphasic chart, but I haven't been doing them continuously. I did test today and got a BFN. I am better with it than in previous months, because I have tried to distract myself with work. I don't know.....I am pretty frustrated. I read a statistic somewhere that said that in the under 30 group 96% of couples get pregnant within 4 months. I guess again we are in the minority. It is also frustrating because with wrok/school and timing of TTC, if we don't suceed in the next 2 months I am really going to have to re-evaluate my planning for going back to med school. I am thinking about going and talking to a doctor- we have been doing everything right. What do you think? Am I just getting ahead of myself? I am also wondering if I have a luteal phase defect.....It is only 11-12 days usually for me, which seems right on the verge...sigh. Lots to think about.

Sending everyone lots of

[crumpet]

Crumpet congrats to you as well on your BFP Wonderful news to have 2 BFPs on the board so close together.

thanks hun!!!

Crumpet - sorry you haven't heard about the job. The market can be pretty tough at the moment. We have just interviewed for a vacancy in my area. We had several good applicants but we can't give the job to all of them unfortunately! And I am so pleased that you felt much better after your counselling session. Are you planning on going again?


AFM, it's been an emotional week for me. AF arrived on Sunday morning so I was able to get my day1 b/t done. You might remember a while ago I posted about being concerned that I was only O every 2nd month well it appears that is not the case. I seem to be Oing normally around day 12-15 and then the next month around day 5-6. And some cycles I am getting EWCM around day 4-6 and then the Fertility Monitor confirms O on day 12-15 without any EWCM. So this cycle I decided to do an OPK yesterday - strong test line, almost the same as the control line, and today - even darker test line so I am definitely Oing now. I will also use the Fertility Monitor to see if it thinks I am also O later in the cycle. The weird thing (if that isn't weird enough) is that my cycle lengths are all around 26-28 days long. Surely I am not O twice in one cycle? Or maybe the egg is growing and then it stops until mid cycle when it releases from the ovary? I have heard of IVF cycles where the egg just stops growing for a week so without any known reason. Bizarre. Anyway, my TCM is going to research it and I will talk to my FS when we see her in 2 weeks.

yeah im disappointed coz it seemed to be looking so good, but oh well like u say u cant employ everyone!!!
the councellor will do a phone session with me this week and see how that goes, then if i want i can go there if i prefer or she can come to me or we will keep up the phone sessions.....

sorry to hear ur having issues with O timing hun ,hope u can sort it out asap!

AFM - I had my docs appointment, all routine. I have done one bloodtest for HCG and will do another next week to make sure it's increasing normally. No results yet.
I'm starting to get worried cause I have NO symptoms at all!!

glad ot hear ur appt went well hun!!

Hi Ladies,
A big congratulations to Crumpet and CharlieB That is so awesome, I am so happy for you! (Even though I am a little jealous )

I am going ok. I moved twice in 4 days because the 1st place I moved into was DISGUSTING.. Really filthy and I was so unhappy there, so was my cat. I don't know what I was thinkng when I agreed to move in, I think I just wanted to get out of my current situatuion before I changed my mind! Anyway, I moved again and now I am a lot happier. Even though I HATE sharing.. I just can't afford to live on my own though.. It's so hard to break the habit of being in a relationship. Thinking, what am I going to have for dinner, instead of we.. It's hard to get used to and if I'm honest it was REALLY hard to let go of TTC.. I know it wasn't the right thing to do when our relationship was in trouble but still. I want a baby SO desperately and that is hard to let go of . I have gone off my herbs obviously, but I started spotting again so I might go back on them just for the mere fact of keeping the bleeding away. I will see how I go.. I am still doing my temps as I think it is good for me to try to see a pattern and let me know what is happening with my own body, even though I am not TTC.. Well ladies, thanks for listening, thanks for all your support.

thanks hun.....

my heart breaks for u hun it really does.....
i couldnt even begin to imagine how hard it must be for u right now....
big hugs for u....

Ok so much to say!
Again charlie B and crumpet congrats! Yay- I am so happy for you and may I say a tad bit jealous.....

AFM- rough week. My EDD went better than expected, but made this week kind of hard. Sorry I haven't written much. The vacation really was nice. Unfortunately the weather was pretty cold and windy so I didn't get in much beach time, but just leaving home and not worrying about work and TTC was really great. We were on holiday when I O. Today is CD28 and no sign of AF. I have had a few elevated temps mixed in with reg ones, and was hoping it might be a triphasic chart, but I haven't been doing them continuously. I did test today and got a BFN. I am better with it than in previous months, because I have tried to distract myself with work. I don't know.....I am pretty frustrated. I read a statistic somewhere that said that in the under 30 group 96% of couples get pregnant within 4 months. I guess again we are in the minority. It is also frustrating because with wrok/school and timing of TTC, if we don't suceed in the next 2 months I am really going to have to re-evaluate my planning for going back to med school. I am thinking about going and talking to a doctor- we have been doing everything right. What do you think? Am I just getting ahead of myself? I am also wondering if I have a luteal phase defect.....It is only 11-12 days usually for me, which seems right on the verge...sigh. Lots to think about.

Sending everyone lots of

thanks hun!!

sorry to hear about ur BFN.... hope u can get some answers soon...
and glad u had a great time, and that ur EDD wasnt a horrible day


AFM: not really much to tell unfortunatly.......
after my session on tuesday i have felt a million times better, and im so glad i did it.... i have a phone session with my councellor this week...
am off to my GP this morning for my bloods to confirm everything but my tests have been getting darker and darker so thats a good thing!

[Samcougar]

Hello lovely ladies,

A HUGE congratulations to CharlieB and Crumpet, what wonderfull news! It's so exciting to finally have some BFP's in here.

Well i'm just popping in to say hello, I'm finding it really hard to get on BB lately, we are so busy. anyway i will do my best to catch up soon.

My love to all
Bec