Clare, a line is a line babe, no matter how faint it is. I hope that it keeps getting darker and you get a Christmas .. I really hope this is your month, I have everything crossed for you

Flowerchild, You sound like you and your family are going to have a wonderful Christmas . I hope you enjoy the lights tour. When I used to live in Townsville there were some streets that every home were covered in lights and the police would close off the streets. I loved doing that as a kid and I am sure you are creating the most magical memories for your kids.

We me, I just feel like I am getting worse. I can't stop crying and feel just so sad. DH is doing his best but to be honest, the next few days are going to be hell. We finally found a house in Sydney, we could only get a 9 month lease but at least once we are there it will make finding a house easier. Silly me, I thought well if I get pregnant this cycle, we will have to move just as the lease is ending. Silly me hey.

I am also really stressed because I have to go to Canberra for work for the first week in Jan and that is just after I am meant to have O'd. Then after that, DH will be moving to Canberra for 6 months training and I will be in Sydney and we will only get to see eachother on the weekend. I feel like that is going to make TTC almost impossible. As DH says, lets just see how we go this cycle and we don't get a BFP then we will figure out how to keep BD'ing while we are in different states? Hmmm, don't know how that is going to work but he is good at fixing things. Interstate booty calls were his suggestion, gotta love him.

Anyway, we have a couple of friends coming over tonight so I am going to go and try and make it look like I haven't been crying. I feel like I am back to the first few days after we lost Harrison and just can't stop the tears. Oh well, I am trying to be grateful for everything I have rather then dwell on that I don't have.

Take care my gorgeous ladies

to every single one of you.

Spring Angel