Hi Everyone

I am up and down like a yo yo! I have been so busy as I have been on vocational placement as the last part of my course.. I am really enjoying it. Today was so hot though and I was in the dementia wing.. Wow, it is very mentally draining but I do like it. I couldn't wait to get home and have a glass of wine (or 10, lol). Not long now til my babies 1st birthday! I rang a balloon place today and they are giving us 1st birthday balloons to release for free.. How lovely, I nearly cried. Actually I did cry! We are going to a friends birthday party the night before and staying in surfers that night, but I am not sure where we will do the balloon release yet.. Probably a park somwhere just with family and the babies godmother who is my best friend. She is awesome. I am still depressed cos I am bleeding.. I spent a whole 9 days before I started to bleed again. On the 8th day I though maybe this would be a normal cycle but no, next morning hello!.. I AM SO FRUSTRATED!!

Aries my fingers are crossed for you

Teagz when is Jayvan's birthday/anniversary? I hope you are ok.. Sending you I also sent out a letter to family and friends. I put Taite and Seth's picture on it and a couple of little quotes then just rambled on about how I want them remembered and suggested ways they can eg; light a candle etc. Then very subtly at the bottom I suggested they could donate to Bonnie Babes (My saviour!) or buy a bereavement bear and donate to the hospital. I got the template from another blog then just changed some things around. I think originally it was from Sands. Anyway, I will put it on my site if anyone wants to look at it. I also put a notice in the sands newsletter. I hope I didn't miss the cutoff anyway what I wrote in there was: Taite and Seth 21/11/08 - 3/12/08

'A million words can't bring you back, I know because I've tried, a million tears can't bring you back, I know because i've cried. If love could have saved you, you never would have died'

Happy 1st Birthday our beautiful Babies, We hope you are having fun together playing in the stars and with all your other angel baby friends. We miss you so much.

Love Always Mummy, Daddy and Big Brother J xxxx

Anyway, I have rambled on long enough hi to everyone else