TTC AFTER Late Loss/Recurrent Miscarriage/ Stillbirth Sept 2009

[helle]

Ches, woo for AF! I remember the first time I got AF after losing Jayvan I was pretty chuffed as well... it's so good knowing when you're body is cooporating with you

Aries, for no AF either for you! When I fell pg with this little bubba I had no symptoms either. When the +ive came up on the POAS I almost fell off/in the toilet. I POAS for three consecutive days and took them all to my DR and didn't really believe it til I got a BT back. I hope you have a little quiet surprise in there too

blessedatlast It's coming up to Jayvan's first birthday/anniversary too and I've been in a bit of a bitter place lately. I shouldn't be, I'm very greatful that I have been given a second chance, I just really wish I could have snuggled my first bubba before having to experience all this nasty pregnancy stuff. be kind to yourself, and do something nice and relaxing on your little ones special day xx

[Chez67]

Hi ladies

Aries you are so strong to not be tempted to POAS before the 21st! I am always in two minds whether to do it or not and of course the time I had no expectations or symptoms at all was when I got my BFP. So, I hope and that just because you haven't had any symptoms you will still get your BFP!

Beata, good luck for next week that your little one cooperates. Do you have a feeling already whether you're having a boy or a girl? I just knew it was a boy as soon as I got my BFP. I don't know why, but then the odds were pretty good weren't they?

Teagz, I hope you are doing ok coming up to this anniversary. It seems so far away for us at the moment but it is something I am thinking about and not looking forward to.

AFM, I want to say a huge thanks for all the kind words of support. I know it was only AF but I was pretty happy. Right now I am just trying to get/keep healthy - still exercising 5 or 6 times per week and being careful with my eating. I am losing weight, slowly! I have started using the Fertility Monitor we bought while in the UK. I'm not supposed to use it until I have 2 'normal' cycles but I can't wait. To my mind it just means I might use a few extra test sticks which doesn't bother me, but it will give me and my TCM so more information so I think that has to be a good thing.

Anyway, gotta go and make a big pot of vege soup for the week.

Take care all and sending lots of to everyone in here. We need some Christmas BFPs!

oxo

[blessedatlast]

Hi Everyone

I am up and down like a yo yo! I have been so busy as I have been on vocational placement as the last part of my course.. I am really enjoying it. Today was so hot though and I was in the dementia wing.. Wow, it is very mentally draining but I do like it. I couldn't wait to get home and have a glass of wine (or 10, lol). Not long now til my babies 1st birthday! I rang a balloon place today and they are giving us 1st birthday balloons to release for free.. How lovely, I nearly cried. Actually I did cry! We are going to a friends birthday party the night before and staying in surfers that night, but I am not sure where we will do the balloon release yet.. Probably a park somwhere just with family and the babies godmother who is my best friend. She is awesome. I am still depressed cos I am bleeding.. I spent a whole 9 days before I started to bleed again. On the 8th day I though maybe this would be a normal cycle but no, next morning hello!.. I AM SO FRUSTRATED!!

Aries my fingers are crossed for you

Teagz when is Jayvan's birthday/anniversary? I hope you are ok.. Sending you I also sent out a letter to family and friends. I put Taite and Seth's picture on it and a couple of little quotes then just rambled on about how I want them remembered and suggested ways they can eg; light a candle etc. Then very subtly at the bottom I suggested they could donate to Bonnie Babes (My saviour!) or buy a bereavement bear and donate to the hospital. I got the template from another blog then just changed some things around. I think originally it was from Sands. Anyway, I will put it on my site if anyone wants to look at it. I also put a notice in the sands newsletter. I hope I didn't miss the cutoff anyway what I wrote in there was: Taite and Seth 21/11/08 - 3/12/08

'A million words can't bring you back, I know because I've tried, a million tears can't bring you back, I know because i've cried. If love could have saved you, you never would have died'

Happy 1st Birthday our beautiful Babies, We hope you are having fun together playing in the stars and with all your other angel baby friends. We miss you so much.

Love Always Mummy, Daddy and Big Brother J xxxx

Anyway, I have rambled on long enough hi to everyone else

[helle]

Teagz when is Jayvan's birthday/anniversary?

11th of december (:

[Chez67]

Hi ladies

Blessedatlast - What a beautiful verse about your lovely babies. You made me cry, for the 2nd time today! And how wonderful for the balloon place to give you free balloons. What you are planning sounds lovely - releasing them in the park with just you guys and your friend. I hope you have a peaceful day

The 1st time I cried today was when I found out that a friend is pg. It was about this time last year that she fell pg. We found out about 2 weeks later that I was pg as well. But then she lost her baby in January and I lost our baby in March. It is all so sad but I am happy for her that she is pg again (just needs a b/t to confirm but HPTs are showing a BFP). I wonder if I will ever fall pg again?

Anyway, its been a pretty cr@p day so am going to try to have a quiet night. DH is away for work again so it is just me and the fur babies on the couch! to everyone

oxo

[Aries]

Hi Ladies

Chez - to you. Im sorry you had a bad day and hope that the one's following are better. My fingers are crossed for you next month!

Blessed - Just like Chez I cried when I read your amazingly beautiful verse for your babies. I too hope that the day is peaceful and that you get a lovely day for it. I will be thinking of Taite and Seth on the 3rd.

Teagz - how are you? I hope you are fighting fit and cruising along nicely! Lol about falling in or off the toilet I did that last time - caught me totally off guard

Beata - Oooh I hope your little one co-operates for you to see the bits! Good luck! I hope you are travelling along nicely.

Hi to anyone I have missed....

AFM - I am officially 1 day late for AF - according to the pregnyl injection that to make me ovulate on the Wed 2 weeks ago. I have huge bb's and tender nipples and just slight pulling pains in my uterus/ovaries not too bad though. Nothing like my AF pains. Very tired but otherwise feel ok. Maybe a little nauseous if i dont eat but thats pretty normal for me anyway. So as you can see it could still go eithier way, will just wait it out until Saturday. I want to be positive about it all but would be devastated the get the wrong answer! So fingers crossed ladies..... Time will tell

Take care
xo

[helle]

Aries, I have goosebumps for you! I when I login on Saturday I see some amazing news