I am so glad that you managed to find your way to our little thread. You know that I understand very much where you are and where have been. It might not seem like it, but we have all journeyed a great distance these past 6 months and most of it has been very hard. I understand your anger and your sense of frustration, and wanting your DD and the life that you had planned to have with her. That is still possible, but your baby will be in a different physical body when he/she does come. That is what I believe anyway.
I can't remember if you are getting help from a counsellor or phsych. I found talking to a psych was very helpful and made me seperate my feelings of loss and longing for a baby, from the guilt that I was carrying around.
I also found several good books that helped, and made me cry, and made me realise that I am not alone. Those and the wonderful ladies here in this thread have really helped a lot. If you would like, I will post you the books that I found most helpful. Just PM me your address. I'm not using them anymore so they are just collecting dust on the bookshelf!
Take care and be gentle with yourself on those bad days
oxo
and most of it has been very hard. I understand your anger and your sense of frustration, and wanting your DD and the life that you had planned to have with her. That is still possible, but your baby will be in a different physical body when he/she does come. That is what I believe anyway.
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