Dorrs, bugger hun but it sounds like you are in a good space about it. Timing not perfect, I can only assume. Well...you have some space with it all until this time next month. Time to order some more sticks babe. xoxo
LnD, that is really frasturating. Sometimes I wonder if these medico people communicate with each other
Dory, I know you're thinking, it's no big deal, and that's you, you're a tough lil cookie! We'll all be hoping for a sticky eggie next time for you hun
Nah not tough... hard to be crushed when I have no cycle yet... so it's just really taking a mad stab in the dark... LOL ... and that's no reference to actual events.
Spreading some happiness and sprinkling some baby dust around. Toodles.
Happy news for my SIL and Bro. They are expecting their second...weren't trying, she is still feeding and no cycle. Hmmmm, how is it that some are dealt with a simple hand. It is just not that easy. Happy for them but numb too. Very numb.
Bit grumpy today but about to spend some time with my DH. xoxo
I just wanted to share that I have had one of the bestest days ever.... a walk and talk with a friend in the gardens and a lovely lunch... the sun is shining on me today.
Gi - I am happy for your SIL & bro on their happy news. But I know how crushing that sort of news can be.... although you're happy for them, it just hurts that it's not you. I know it's unfair. I wish I could change it for you, but all I can do is offer my love, which seems so inadequate at times. Hugs.
Thinking of everyone else, but I can't stay in for long today. I hope even just for a moment it feels like the sun is shining on you today.
Would you look at that...I seem to be having a smashing day today too. Must be something in the air. xoxo Nothing like sharing time with a friend.
Yes it can be a bit of a battle sometimes. I want to be the best i am for them, support them, be there for them, be a kick butt aunty, but it can be hard sometimes when you feel a bit incomplete yourself. I just do what i can and try to accept it is my new best and it is good enough.
i've had a horrible day yesterday and today i've woken up with these horrible migraines, and today was so bad all day i've felt sick from it, like i feel hungover except i haven't drunk anything..... have taken panadol and that seems to help which is good.
Gigi just though i would give a big i know what you mean about that 'numb' feeling. only a few weeks after i lost Josiah, one of SIL's, one im actually really very close friends with, she confided in me that she was pregnant. after i got off the phone i went and told DH, and i just broke down. i was so happy for her, and i am still, i'm so excited for them! but i was absolutely gutted, because i felt like they were going to get the baby that i so desperately wanted and had been ripped from me.....DH felt so bad for me as well cause i was torn between emotions
now that i think about it, it might have been after this that DH said he wanted another baby......
anyway, and to you Dory for having a great day, the weather is just beautiful today (at least where i am anyway)
and a big hello to everyone else hope everyone is travelling well.
hopefully i can shake these migraines soon....have had some vision problems on and off since having J as well, so im off to the Optometrist on Saturday. hope it's a quick fix thing
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sorry for missing people. In a very dark hole atm. I know I should move to the Pregnancy after late loss forum but I still dont feel safe, even though it's now public. I havent even been able to say anything at work although it's fairly obvious (either I'm pregnant or I'm scoffing doughnuts). I knew it would be hard. I just didnt anticipate that the fear on top of grief just keeps swirling along. It's nearly DS's 9month birthday and it's getting so hard leading up to it. I hate to think what his 1 year birthday will be like. I keep thinking of what we're missing out on - teething, crawling, babbling. I dont know. I dont have another baby to compare it to. I cant deal with other people's babies atm, even when I've been OK in the past. I feel like things are getting worse, not better. I just want my son back and I dont know when that feeling fades.
Tashybabe, I know that terrified feeling all too well, I also am not ready to "change threads" I feel safer here here you guys know me! I know every time you look around you think "that heartbeat will stop soon" or "something is sure to go wrong again 'caue it did last time".
My advice on first angel day is to make good stable plans, for some reason that made the day bearable for us, rather than not knowing what was going to happen for Ellen's first B'day.
Dory, as usual you make me feel like smiling, thanks, I'm glad the sun is shining on you.
Gigi, goodluck and my thoughts are with you too.
Mummydreamer, I think I know you from another forum. You are going wonderfully for such early days, be gentle with yourself even if that is very very hard.
AFM nearly 21 weeks, feeling baby now and then, wondering if we should find out if it's a boy or girl........if it's a girl I'll stress more but if it's a boy I'll be able to relax a bit I reckon. Busy arranging a baby shower for a friend tomorrow evening........
Hi
I have never posted online in any type of forum before so I hope I am doing it right. My husband and I lost our beautiful son on the 8/4/2011. Words cannot describe how I felt when at my 27 week check up no heart beat could be found.
As it has only been 2 weeks today I know it is too early to TTC but I just cant stop thinking about how desperately I need to try again.
I would love to get to know the other women on here and hope to chat to some of you soon.
EmilyJames - I am so sorry you lost your precious boy Welcome to BB I'm sorry it was tragic circumstances that brought you here. I am sure you will find loads of support, as unfortunately many of us have gone down this road
Dory - Anymore mad stabs in the dark??
Gigi - It is definitely hard to hear pregnancy announcements from your family. That feeling of being jealous as hell, but happy for them aswell. It'ss hard to manage..
Hi to Mummydreamer, Tashybabe, MissB and anyone else I have missed.
AFM - I have updated in the clomid thread a while ago saying that once again my r'ship is very unstable, however being the sucker that I am, he romanced me with a nice ocean view room, dinner and champagne and it just so happened to be last w'end right on O!!!! Considering I didn't want to waste my clomid cycle, it was perfect timing, (although probably not the most responsible thing to do)
Anyway I am 6DPO today and going for my day 21 progesterone test this morning.. Sure enough I have been dreaming about breastfeeding a baby. Happens every month in the TWW I have noticed! It's awful to wake up and feel like your boobs should be full and your baby should be there
Things apart from that are up and down, I hate this time of the year with Easter and Mothers day, I haven't been able to sleep and I have been working every day.. On a good note though, I have a job interview in 2 weeks for a hospital's grad program. There aren't many places so i really have to make an impression! So wish me luck!
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Nothing like sharing time with a friend.
have taken panadol and that seems to help which is good.
i know what you mean about that 'numb' feeling. only a few weeks after i lost Josiah, one of SIL's, one im actually really very close friends with, she confided in me that she was pregnant. after i got off the phone i went and told DH, and i just broke down. i was so happy for her, and i am still, i'm so excited for them! but i was absolutely gutted, because i felt like they were going to get the baby that i so desperately wanted and had been ripped from me.....DH felt so bad for me as well cause i was torn between emotions
to you Dory for having a great day, the weather is just beautiful today (at least where i am anyway)
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