Miss B, your story has been in my head all morning and i wanted to come in and give you a hug..a cyber one anyway. Little Josh born on GF. All the reminders. Thinking of you gorgeous girl.
Hmmm tried to go to a home birth support meeting today to find out more info in the area and what people are doing now...etc. and you know when things just don't flow... I have had this planned all month, kept it free from oter commitments and then when i got there no one was there. I came back home and thought...i will just double check. Well the site i got the info on was so out of date, so i guess i just wasn't meant to go today. I just wish i knew sooner so i i knew i didn't have to get out of bed. xoxo Going to lie down for a bit to rest my neck and head. I will try not to read too much into todays progress so far....
HM xoox
Mto2- Bugger hun, chin up...cheering you on for next cycle.
Dory my dear friend, thinking of you and your darling little Nicholas for his day tomorrow. Hope you all feel well enough to spend some time in the warm sun. Big hugs xoox
Hey lovely ladies. I am out of here for a week, hitting the country and having some R&R.
I am a bit ratty atm and it didn't help that on my way home tonight i pulled up beside a car at the traffic lights and the back passenger was holding a baby-about 6mth. I just about got out of my car and had a go at them. Are they nuts!! I was wild. Who in their right mind would have a baby in the back seat without a car seat.
Anyway found my peace again and geting ready for our trip.
I am 1DPO and we are in the TWW. Managed to get a positive test on the Fri morning so i hope we hit the spot. I am tired but in pretty good spirits. Can't wait to get away though. DH has one more day of work and we are off.
Sending you all lucky and loving vibes for everyone both going through a tough time and those waiting and TTC. Thinking of you all and hope i hear some good news when i get back. xoxo
Gigi - how outrageous having a baby in a car unrestrained. I would have called the cops I think!! Yay for the +ve opk & being in the 2ww. Much luck to you for this month
Enjoy your time in the country - sounds devine......
Hi to everyone else - love & luck to you all as well xxxx
Gigi, thanks for your beautiful hugs from the other day I hope your holiday is lovely, enjoy it hun!! And I have everything crossed for you in this cycle too FXFXFXFXFXFXFXFXFX
A baby NOT strapped in the car?????? I would have taken down the rego and called someone before they do real damage to that poor baby! OMG!
Hope everyone is going well and big truck loads of baby dust to all xoxoxoxox
Miss B - ahh sweetie, I love garlic and horseradish but it's not recommended during lactation, so I am taking an echincea (sp?) complex instead.... I am still sick! Arghhh. The antibiotics have helped to start to clear the chest infection but it's a moving feast in terms of other symptoms... I just keep hoping that tomorrow is the day I wake up and feel better. GF day will never be the same huh?
Oh how did your meeting with the FS go? Did they say why the egg reserve has dropped? Is there a plan?
Gi - thankyou my dear for thinking of us. We did see the sun and it was good. I almost didn't because of the sickness but I am glad I persevered. Glad you got a big O, and hope the tww passes peacefully. I am not sure why stupidity ( and danger) make us so angry, but I had a similar experience with a heavily pregnant woman smoking. It took all my strength to just walk away.
Tashy - oh sweetie.... so many questions, so much pain...... I wish I could make your journey easier. You didn't do anything to deserve your sons being so sick and dying. It just happened, and it is simply a devastating tragedy, unfair and heartbreaking. I hope you find some peace soon in your search for answers. We all find our own way through. If you asked me how I did manage how did I get through? Now, I honestly couldn't tell you, as I have no idea. I think I just woke up every day and just for a moment, even just that moment when you've just woken before you remember what your reality is, and tried to find some peace. Hmm, thinking about it cats helped me a lot, and they still do.
This is going to sound like an odd question, but have you laughed yet? Do you remember when you first laughed after Leo died, and how foreign it sounded, and how guilty you felt?
I know what it feels like to be drowing, and I know what it feels like to be in the dark lonely places. I know I offered for you to call me anytime, but I also know that in those very lonely moments, it's almost impossible to reach out.
How about I call you? It would have to be a certain times of the day ( usually somewhere between 9.30 and noon) though so that I can at least attempt to give you my full attention.
Anyway, illness abounds in our household. There is no TTC. I have a pimple and rejoice that it might be my cycle returning. I should go and get some tests. Anyway, even though we were too sick to do it on Nick's angel day, I have used some other people's ideas as inspiration and we are going to buy some photo frames and some memory boxes and take them up to the hospital where Amelia and Sophie were born. Even though I was happy with how they helped us start to memoralise our babies, I have decided there might be things that are more helpful to the recently bereaved. So that's what I have decided to do. I am hoping to be well enough soon to go and buy the items and then deliver them. First I will make a call to the hossy though, to see if they will accept them. I just feel the time for me to become more proactive has come, rather than just focus so much on me.
Although when we were last at the hossy, one of the middies offered to go and get the camera to take a picture and made some throw away comment that it had been donated by a lady whose baby had died. Hmm, gave me a great sense of satisfaction to know that it was used, and that a little of the story stayed with the camera. Funnily enough, the middie then looked at me, paused and said, "ahh that was you wasn't it?".
I hope that there is at least some bd'ing going on out there as there is zilch here.
Coooooeeeeeeeee......where is everyone? Awful quite in here of late....
Dory - I hope you are feeling better & that your cycle is on it's way back.
That was a lovely story about the camera & how you plan to help those poor souls going through the loss of a bubba...God bless people like you x
So how is everyone else going? I've had a rough week or so of late - feeling all woe is me, crying at the drop of hat etc. Know you will all understanf - familiar territory when yoiu've been through what we've been through....
Anyway, hugs & babydust to all x
Hi girls, i dont know how i feel about posting in here anymore, i dont want to upset anyone with my pregnant-ness. please know i do stalk u all like a crazy person though and am praying u all join me on this side of the fence soon
Skybie, I'm a mad stalker too! hahaha. I don't think the ladies mind you popping in here! How are you going hun?
mummytotwo, I hope this week is better for you
Dory, I hope you're feeling much better now, you've had such a bad run this winter! Big hugs and I hope at least you got a teeny weeny bit of BD......how's wee Hannah Bear?
Gigi, how was your country get away? Bet is was beautiful and relaxing....lucky duck!
Tash, how are you sweetie?
Hi to everyone else, LysnDan, blessed, Judy, Emily James...anyone else?
I'm not up to much myself, just counting the days until my cycle in Nov. hopefully and before that my lovely holiday next month. Yay! Wee man has been good, still waiting for him to take his first steps on his own.
Hi girls, today is Jack half birthday. i thought time was meant to fly when you're having fun, we certainly havent been and its gone so so quickly.
i dont know why, but im a little upset that noone remembered, not a single msg or anything, not even from mum.
All seems to be going well pregnancy wise, i havent had a scan or been to the doctors yet, but i havent bled and my boobs hurt like all buggery, keeping positive that all will be well when we get to our 12 week scan.
i really want an early scan just to check, but we dont have the money to spare atm.
Anyway, hope ur all well, Gigi hope u had a fantastic time away hun.
Dores, Miss B, you're never far from my thoughts.
Much love to u all xxx
Skybie - Oh sweetie, it does hurt so much when no one remembers.... it seems that's always they way for me.... thinking of you and Jack and Moo and Squid and DH on such a sad anniversary.
If it's important that people remember, it's up to you to take the lead and remind people of the day and it's importance to you, and just how important it is to you for them to remember.
LOL - I can't take my own advice.... although I did put a post up on FB for Nicholas' angelversary.... although none of my family are on FB at least some of my friends were made aware of the day and it's importance to us.
Miss B - no action here! Still all to unwell, although there was a sneaky moment last weekend. So we must be on the mend. Oh November is not to far away. Is Cam still fighting bedtimes?
Gi - missing you girl, hope your trip away was good for your soul.
That's it from me. Stuff to do. Hope you're all ok.
I have missed so much on this thread I wanted to let you all know that I am thinking of you all. I am on the phone at the moment but as soon as I get to a pc I can answer you all personally. I have been keeping track and reading on the phone regularly.
Skybie, I meant to reply yesterday and I got distracted. I was thinking of your gorgeous boy Jack yesterday, I'm sure he was smiling on you all on his half birthday. Happy half birthday lil guy! Hun, I am pretty much the only person (except DF) who remembers Josh's EDD and birthdays. It's sucks big time, big hugs darling
Dory, yay for a sneaky moment! lol. I have not been BDing much, my dear DF thinks I'm having an online affair (hehehe it's called belly belly) as I have for some reason gone off BDing lately. Oh well, maybe my drive will come back soon! Cam is doing well, back to being a good lil boy, bedtime has improved heaps. November can't come soon enough Hope you're all feeling better soon
Hi Girls, I am back from the woods and CD27 today- I already feel AF entering the building. It has been a bit of a full on week. DH and I had a huge blue this week which is very unlike us and we understand a lot better now as to why it happened. Long story short as i will no doubt go into more in my blog for my own record. It had been a confronting week as this old girl turned 35 and we were facing a deadline for TTC, pressure was immense. We went away for the week to visit friends which was lovely but a little full on. Bad timing was all. The kids had school and Friends DH still at work, made everyone very tired. I cooked all week for all and made sure to look after my hubby too.
ANYWAY...long story short, DH sprung on me, on the way home, that he wanted to go and visit his father. The relationship is estranged but civil. HIstory there which I had long forgotten until that moment. Dh changed, his energy was different, we started bickering, and carrying on like children. He was defensive, argumentative and attacking. I was doing they same trying to get him to talk to me about what was going on for him. It was mad. A couple of things happened in particular and his sister unkonwingly was invovled. Needless to say it took me right back to 13 years ago or so when all the issues were at their peak. I felt like we lost all that we worked hard to achieve.
Spoke to the Psych and she confirmed for us the likely explaination was that visiting DH's home and his mothers grave, even though his father didn't end up being there. ust being in that town has an affect on us but in particular going to his childhood home etc and visiting his mum's head stone, was powerful enough to bring up all old ways of dealing with things, old attitudes, behaviours and habits.
I had a little melt down and felt absolutely devastated. I kept saying, it feels petty and i feel silly but this is ripping out my heart. I felt like everything was taking a ride down a slippery slope. I just couldn't go back to that time in our life and I freaked out. Anyway it took me a while but we are back to our usual lovey selves. We both feel a little bruised and we will have to talk a whole lot more about it, but one positive thing to come out of the experience was a glimpse of how far we have come in our relationship, our life. Incredible. I thought we were always in a really good place, but now i know we are in a REALLY good place.
So off the back of that, had a little pink CM in the last couple of days and pimple have got angry. AF is on her way. Neg test this morning to confirm things so i am just waiting and trying not to go off the rails but stay balanced and healthy. The last week we had to eat along side another persons diet which invariably changes ours a bit. Last night we went out to dinner which was lovely and then i rebelled with a pack of chips, ice block and choc. Back on track today to try and take care of ourselves.
Better go, Sorry for no lengthy personals, i am trying madly to get back on track from holidays. Got a bit to do and had a bit going on....
Thinking of you girls,
Dores- missed you too hun,
Skybie- welcome in here as long as ever, take your time. Hugs to you and for your special day with Jack.
Miss B- thanks for your cheers hun.
M2Two- Hope your days are looking brighter love. Not a nice feeling is it. Sending you hugs.
LysNDan-How are you going?
Tash- How are you doing love? Thinking of you.
Lady Tess- You are going so well. Congrats for being at 19wks.
Other ladies stalking...sending you thoughts and hugs. xoxo
My apologies for not being in here for ages (not sure if any of you even remember me...). Just haven't had the energy the last whatever months, due to work and studies mainly.
Anyway... Dh and I DTD on sunday (finally...) It has been a looong wait, 10-11 months approx, first due to surgery then vaccines (so had to wait another 3 months before it was 'safe' to get preggers...) and hubby having a bad back, and being too stressed with his work etc.
Not sure if it is appropriate for me to ask this here, but do you remember your pregnancy-symptoms well?? The last 4 days I've been nauseous, headache, oh sooo tired, heartburn, funny stomach (not really painful tho..) disgusting taste in my mouth, and brushing my teeth doesn't seem to help on it either, moody (poor hubby..), crying for no reason at all, eating like there's no tomorrow... So.. is this just 'symptoms' I WANT to see, or is it really possible to feel this a week before AF is due?? (5-6 days after O'ing)??
Hi TJ- yes i remember you hun. Hope you have been well.
As far as i know...it may be too early to experience symptoms of any strength. Symptoms come from the hormonal changes and things like funny tummy, heartburn and nausea etc are from the body dealing with progesterone increase which i think is only once fertilisation and implantation occurs that it starts to really climb. OUr bodies can be pretty amazing though and go through all sorts of feelings. Take for instance a husband taking on pregnancy symptoms. I hope for you that they are early symptoms.
Fingers crossed for you love. I bet it has been a tough number of months leading up to this time. Hope your body's both got the rest they need for a healthy pregnancy. Good Luck.
xoxo
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I hope your holiday is lovely, enjoy it hun!! And I have everything crossed for you in this cycle too FXFXFXFXFXFXFXFXFX
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