Thanx so much for your honest & open opinions ladies. I know in my heart that I will never forgive myself if we don't try at least once more & as we already know the likely management of the pregnancy I know that that side of things will be very closely looked after. I guess it is just more of the emotional side of things that I am struggling with.
I know how much fear I carried into my pg with Thomas after losing Alex, I lived day to day for months & just when I thought I was able to breath out a little it all went wrong again. I also fear that that means whatever was doubled before will almost be twice as bad again, I fear being able to enjoy the pregnancy (when & if) it happens. I am scared that I will again become an emotional mine field & that again my family will suffer.
But I have the counsellor & he is always contactable by phone & has already said that for him it would be an honour to be able to support us through another pregnancy & that he is always available by phone should we ever need him outside of the weekly appointments we have already discussed. It is just so daunting.
I wish I had the naiviety (sp?) back of just falling pregnant & having a baby, no dramas & no idea of all the terrible things that can happen, but that of course is just wishful thinking.
Again ladies thanx heaps.
Spring I am thinking of you today & hope all goes well with your ultrasound.
Its BENIGN Nothing to worry about apparently. I didn't realised just how terrified I was until I was lying there in that stupid blue gown with that dreaded ultrasound probe on my breasts. It just really hit me all of a sudden that I might be about to find out that I had cancer, I might die!!!! I just couldn't hold myself together. We were both so releived to hear that it is nothing to worry about. It is a benign cyst which is most likely caused by a blocked milk duct. It may get bigger, smaller, stay the same or disappear completely. Some women have them all throughout their breasts.
Both my DH and I are totally exhausted that we are going to go to sleep for an hour or two. I'll drop by later to see how everyone is going after I have gathered my thoughts.
Nothing to worry about apparently. I didn't realised just how terrified I was until I was lying there in that stupid blue gown with that dreaded ultrasound probe on my breasts. It just really hit me all of a sudden that I might be about to find out that I had cancer, I might die!!!! I just couldn't hold myself together. We were both so releived to hear that it is nothing to worry about. It is a benign cyst which is most likely caused by a blocked milk duct. It may get bigger, smaller, stay the same or disappear completely. Some women have them all throughout their breasts. 
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