Thanx so much for your honest & open opinions ladies. I know in my heart that I will never forgive myself if we don't try at least once more & as we already know the likely management of the pregnancy I know that that side of things will be very closely looked after. I guess it is just more of the emotional side of things that I am struggling with.

I know how much fear I carried into my pg with Thomas after losing Alex, I lived day to day for months & just when I thought I was able to breath out a little it all went wrong again. I also fear that that means whatever was doubled before will almost be twice as bad again, I fear being able to enjoy the pregnancy (when & if) it happens. I am scared that I will again become an emotional mine field & that again my family will suffer.

But I have the counsellor & he is always contactable by phone & has already said that for him it would be an honour to be able to support us through another pregnancy & that he is always available by phone should we ever need him outside of the weekly appointments we have already discussed. It is just so daunting.

I wish I had the naiviety (sp?) back of just falling pregnant & having a baby, no dramas & no idea of all the terrible things that can happen, but that of course is just wishful thinking.

Again ladies thanx heaps.

Spring I am thinking of you today & hope all goes well with your ultrasound.