Hi Girls,

Its been really quiet in here lately hasnt it? Everyone seems to have disappeared

SB - Any news from docs? I got my ACa levels done again, after our conversation I was worried that maybe it is possible for them to change so decided to ask for my levels to be checked. Havent got the results yet, but should get them today. I am just worried that if the levels are higher than they were in the initial test and we dont pick it up they wont be able to treat me properly when I get pregnant (IF I ever bloody well get pregnant).

Lynn - Yes you do know who I am talking about , but I have to admit there were a couple of people I thought I may at least get a text message from but didnt. I am really disappointed in them, but a friend said we cant be too hard on them cause until someone has lost their baby they cant understand how hard it is. I think well thats true but man it doesnt take an einstein to realise that the pain doesnt go, that all anniversaries - especially your babies 1st birthday - is hard. So yeah I have decided that I just wont make an effort for those people, if I never hear from them again well they werent worth having as friends in the first place.

Aunty M - I agree with you that people are just unable to step outside their own lives, I personally dont think those people even really thought of Nicholas. Their lives go on, and the reason they havent contacted us is cause they know ours is still a mess so they put you in the too hard basket and I would be surprised if they even think about us anymore. I like your idea of the card, but Klee is right they wouldnt even notice, they are just like that. And I dont think I do want a relationship with the child. I just feel bad cause its DHs only mate who will have children (all the others are born to be bachelors) and I feel like maybe I should just make an effort for his sake. He gets annoyed at them too, but you know men, they can forgive alot more easily than women.

Klee (aka "crazy lady") - LOL I hope you got more cake yesterday... and then went and sat in a playground waiting and watching for your laugh of the day You are right about the card, they wouldnt notice!

Jo - How you going? How is DS?

I worked yesterday at a radiology practice typing reports. I nearly had a freak out in the morning cause I forgot that der where do you get obstetric ultrasounds from? So I was thinking OMG how am I going to get through today. I had to type mainly early pgs, like nuchal trans studies and dating scans, but then got a 36 week one and thought oh I hope this doesnt upset me. But you know what, as much as I was thinking the whole time "I hate you" about the patient, I managed to keep it together and just got on with the job. I was very proud of myself so had to share it.

Oh well better go have a shower, then heading off to my sisters for the day.

Take care everyone