Good mornong Lovely Ladies!!!

I have not been doing much comp work lately, so no BB for me. I have come in early today to get my fix and then i will be gone again for a few days!!

KLEE i love your new sig, its so sweet. I hope those pains you are feeling are implantaion and uteris stretching pains!!! I am still crossing everything for you!! Yes, everything, we haven't been putting in much effort this month!! You never know, it might pay off, his swimmers might be extra keen seeing as they arn't getting out much!! LOL
It sounds like your family have been really understanding about you and their new bub. Congratulaions to them from me. And a bigggg hugg to you and DF. It is so bitter sweet isn't it. Some people make this whole having babies thing look too easy! Like you said, it will be us one day!!

Auntie M Happy 6 months to your darling Yeti. I am sure he is celebrating in his own special way. I was thinking about how we talked about our little angels spirits, i am picturing that while Peanut is still a peanut and his or her spirit is still free and roaming, that it may mean that peanuts spirit and yeti's spririt could be spending time flittering around together before peanut joins the people world. I thought you might like that picture in your mind. And i beleive that our beans or sprouts or peanuts spirits can roam while they are in utero before they are actually born. And i beleive that our angel babies are out there somewhere in the same space time continuum (ok i made that bit up- i dont know know what a time space continuim is, but it sounds good!!) So it makes sense to me that they are out there together for this short time!! What do you reckon?

MEL Hey there, i have been completely un motivated this month!! I haven't sent away for opk's or pg tests, i haven't made another dr's appt, i am just being slack. I will make an appt today to see my local ob and to get another referral to a high risk ob on the coast. This is my mission. But i am just following my origianl instructions by staying off aspirin until preg and take it from there. But i will get my anti done again before i get preg cause as you were saying its harder/not possible to get an acurate level when you are actually preg. As i said, i have been completley un motivated this month, and knowing me, this is when it will happen!! I hope sooo!!!
I have half picked up from your posts that some good friends of yours have forgotten Nicholas on his special day- i agree with the others, as hard as it might be, if they are your friends then it should matter to them how your are feeling always, in good times and in bad. there is nothing worse then "Fine weather Friends" They are the kind of people who are only there for the good times and who tend to disapear when things get tough or uncomfortable. They could at least be upfront and maybe tell you that they at least remember its Nicholas's day and that as much as they love you it is too much for them, but they could at least acknowledge him and your pain.
I get the ****s a bit because over the years people have completly forgotten about Darren. And this is even sadder- after loosing Zahra at full term- people then made an assumption that he was forgotten because he was just a feotus, not a full term baby- he will always be special to me he was my first born son,and always will be. And like you said, until it happens to them they just dont get it.

I had an interesting weekend, we had our friends who we haven't sen for a long time visit and they brought their new baby boy Oliver. It was good to see them after such a long time, and it was easy to talk to them, it was like we just saw them last week!! I was a bit unsure how i would feel seeing little ollie, but it was good. I had a feew cuddles and no tears. My friend has had her share of preg problems, with her first son he was born 2 months premi and she has problems with bloodpressure and her and her partner also suffered a miscarrage a few years ago, so i know she appriciates what she has. She took some time out to look at Zahra's pictures and things which was nice. As everyone says she said she looked beautiful like a princess. (Zahra actually means Little Princess, and Darren means Little One)

Well, thats it from me for now, off to do some work- i will be back!!!

Hi Tio judy and Jo!!! (BTW jo, this is a long post!!!!!)