Oh Mel, I am so sorry to hear about Kenny. Don't feel bad about calling her a freak last night, you weren't to know. If only animals could tell us what was wrong. That is so cute that you now have both birds with you watching tv. I used to have a budgie called Joey. He was so cool and could talk but he liked to hump the mirror too!!!

What are you seeing at the movies tomorrow? I got some movie tickets for my birthday but I just don't know what to see. Have you seen Dreamgirls? I would like to see that but I don't think DH does. I wonder if it is a girly movie?

How are you feeling today?

No we don't have a public holiday today. Well I bit the bullet and went into work. It was much harder than I thought. Everytime I saw a different person, I just cried. I guess I always thought that next time I went back in there it would be to show off Cooper. They are such wonderful people and I sat there crying with some of them. One guy told me how he lost a baby at 16 weeks and he knows how devastated he and his wife were so he couldn't even imagine what DH and I have been through. He told me that I will always be apart of the family and am welcome to come back and work, or just come back and have a coffee whenever I wanted to.

My mum just called too. She is away at the moment. She asked how I was and I just burst into tears. I was trying not to cry because I don't want her jumping on the first plane home! I just told her about work and how it was much harder than I thought. She said that because they are just relaxing and she has time on her hands she is finding that all she is doing is thinking of me and Cooper and she is finding it really hard. We then had a cry together After all the crying that I have been doing, I just didn't think there would be any more tears, but they just keep coming!

Hope you are ok - thinking of you and sending you a big