Flowerchild - big hugs to you :hugs: I am thinking of you and your little bubba. Happy birthday to your precious sweet angel. I bet all the angels had a big party yesterday for him. I hope that one day you can understand why too. Sometimes just knowing the answers help just a little bit. It is such a frustrating path that we are all on the moment, but March is our month

Spring - 'Aunty Lynn' that brought tears to my eyes (I still have some left after today!) That is such a beautiful thing to say. I just can't wait to meet Lil' Spring tomorrow. I know that I can be strong and I will be able to do this with you. Every day lately I feel like I am doing something that is a step forward and I believe that this is helping me. One more sleep

Mel - Yes I have had a big day. And I just played tennis. It was good to hit the s&^% out of the ball (poor ball!) but I feel better.

Bailey - yes I hope to get lots of baby germs tomorrow I can send you some if you want. Patrick Swaze - that is funny! Did you tell him that?

Michelle - it is a hard decision to go back to work. But at the moment I just can't. I'm not sure if I ever will but it is there if I want to. I just need to concentrate on #1.

Nat - thinking of you and your family - big