Auntie M, I don't think there is something that is just going to fix it...

The grief of losing a child does ease over time, but it will always be with us. I know for me personally, Amy's first birthday was a big turning point for me, it's almost as if I'd dedicated a year to her, had the intense grief, and that now it was time to take a bit of a step back, get back into life and try to think of the memories I did have with her and try to be happy....

Plus, It's only been 4 months, you shouldn't expect yourself to be "fixed" yet. Hugs