Thanks all for the positive vibes, I just seem to get a bit down about it all (as we all have at some stage I suppose)
Well today is my b'day, & the first thing I did was snap at DH, when he tried to tease me by asking me what i wanted for my b'day, I turned & snapped that my daughter alive & well would be nice! (So not fair of me to say that, I instantly felt rotten for it!)
Tomorrow is Storms 6mth birthday, so perhaps that was playing on my mind when I snapped at him!
Anyways, he & the kids had already shopped & brought be a beautiful photo frame with a butterfly on it!
Sorry all, I must really sound self absorbed at the moment!
How is everyone else today?
Deb - Well that seems pretty apt cause I believe Victory will be yours, I am so glad to hear Col is ahead of dates, all you hope for is to be normal for dates but ahead of is just a bonus WOOHOO! I can just imagine how hard these weeks are for you but if it means anything you have alot of people here for you, I hope the weeks pass as quickly as possible and as I said victory will be yours.
I have been keeping an eye but havent posted all that much cause its been quiet I guess... I havent got a date for IVF to start as yet, we have an appointment at Melbourne IVF on 31st July and we have to see a nurse, a counsellor and the accounts department and then I guess it is booked from there. I have to go on the pill for 4-6 weeks as of CD1 (not sure exactly when that is, maybe 1 and 1/2 weeks) to stabilise hormones and regulate cycle. I am really nervous about it to be honest, I havent heard anything about how they do IVF. Apparently they will do a frozen embryo cycle and I dont know how they do it or anything. I hope its not painful! I dont understand how we have gotten to this point but the fact is we have, sobeit - I dont care as long as I get a BFP (and healthy bub) at the end of it... surely I have waited long enough now!
Spring - That is true that it is part of the healing, I guess that is what happens when your life starts to normalise. I actually take it as a really good sign that this last time I weaned off the anti-depressants was a success. I think I have been off them for a month or more (cant remember) now and I feel ok, still have bad days but I am pretty sure that is to be expected. Overall, I am coping though so I think that is good.
I have been thinking about how stressed you must be getting, time is going by very quickly and I am sure anxiety about everything in the lead up to lil Spring's arrival is so normal. I just know everything will be ok, not that it helps you, and you will be meeting lil Spring in the flesh really soon. I know how nervous you are so I will just have to experience the excitement for you
Hope you are all having a good Tuesday - tomorrow is hump day so YAY!
Thanks Mel - I know all of us with baby's in our belly's have so many people praying and thinking good things for us. We are all very fortunate to have each other... I know the ivf is scary but it's going to be fine. It's a step that's needed to get this baby in your arms. We are all here and will help you thru...
Jo: I know exactly how you feel about your Birthday. My birthday was a few weeks ago an I said a similar thing to my DH and started to the day balling my eyes out. I hope you get a chance to have a nice evening and are spoilt rotten
Mel: you are right, IVF is a huge step and I think that the FS should really explain to you what you should expect. I have a friend whos sister has done and continues to do IVF so if you want me to give you her email address and introduce you to her I am more than happy to.
Tommysmum: Look at your ticker go girl, wow almost half way.
howdy everyone. seems like the tww will last forever. i try not to obsess, but that is a bit like trying not to think of a white elephant once someone has said it. i'm so glad to be able to pop in here and feel a connection to folks who understand and don't judge.
Lynn- sorry that af came back. don't give up hope. happy birthday, so sorry you have to get through without Storm. i can understand what you said to your DH, those milestones are so difficult. it is impossible for me and dh to get through those days without some bickering. so few people seem to get the milestone problem, and i guess i don't want them to if it means they'd have to live through this pain. makes for a lonely existence, though. hugs.
Mel- sounds like an involved process, maybe you can get some details fleshed out. that always helps my fear if i know what to expect in detail. probably the illusion of control that makes me feel better.
Lynn- it helps to have you all to "talk" to, because you know what it feels like to be so completely at the mercy of others' compassion (or lack thereof). hope you are holding up okay with all of the stress, worry, fear, joy, hope etc. hugs.
happy 6 month storm, hope your doing okay today jo. dh would understand your outburst, no need to feel guilty about it.
deb - what a sign, victory wow that is amazing, yes it is definitely going to be a victory.
mel - how did last nights meeting go?
just a quick one, no whinging from me today, i know your all shocked
jo - sorry happy belated birthday for yesterday, I hope the day got a little better for you and that you are doing okay today. I too recently had my first birthday without my angel, and as much as I didn't want to celebrate it, my sister and nieces made a huge fuss, which surprisingly helped. i have a wonderful memory from this birthday thanks to the relaxing bath my nieces made me. relaxing meaning one splashing water in my face whilst the other pulled my hair attempting to shampoo it.
klee - well again its quiet and i'm replying to myself, thats a sure sign of craziness lol
Dont worry Klee, I will reply to you The meeting last night was good, we didnt get home until 1am The meeting went until about 11.30pm or something and then by the time we stood out the front chatting and then had to drive home... OMG, I am sooooooo tired atm!!!!! Anyway, I can tell you all about it on Saturday. We were laughing too cause I said that I am pretty sure before chatterbox (me ) started going they were finishing much earlier LOL. Hope you are having an ok day today
Spring - I havent really had a chance to talk to FS and also cause all that was said was after the anaesthetic and I was a little groggy, then he was on hols last week. I will be seeing him after my IVF apps on 31st July though so I am sure they will explain it all then. If you dont mind it would be great to email your friend, I really would like to talk to someone about what IVF is like, I thought about posting in the assisted conception thread but dont really want to intrude and cause they have all been trying for years they will probably think I shouldnt stress you know. How are you feeling?
Auntie M - I have my everything crossed that come out of this TWW with a BFP.
Deb - I think it is what I need to get that bub, I dont understand why and I probably never will. Stress may be a factor, but we have all been stressed to the max and I seem to be the one lagging behind so I dont really believe it is that much of a contributor. Something else is going on and it is just explained... but I WILL do whatever it takes!
Katti - Dont practise toooooooooo much, its funny how old it can get so quickly LOL (dont tell my DH I said that!)
Hi to Bailey who has been in exile (but thanks to work will return tomorrow... for 1 day LOL) -
Another for Jo, thinking of you and hoping you are doing ok.
Last edited by Mel1977; July 11th, 2007 at 04:07 PM.
i think i might have some good news.i have been getting all the pg symptoms that i got with the last pregnancy.so when i got home today from work i did a hpt and i got a faint line.... im not going to get my hopes up but fingers crossed.i am going to try again in a week or so to see if the line gets stronger...
Hi guys! Wow it has been busy in here for the past few days. Sorry I have been MIA for a while. Dealing with some emotions at the moment and also this 'work thing' just takes up too much time!! No work is going ok, keeps me busy for a few days and mind on other things.
Mel - so good to see you back here babe I hope you are doing ok. I know what you mean about not knowing how you got to the point of IVF. While I didn't get that far, I did have an assisted conception and it is hard to understand and comprehend. But like you, I saw it as a way to have a baby and without it I would be childless. Big hugs to you babe, you will have that BFP very very soon. I am going ok - lots of fears, but I am working them through. I am starting pre-natal yoga in a few weeks so I am hoping that helps. *Hope* is going great. Measuring spot on and moving around. We are getting some really nice photos at the scans and it is amazing how much they develop each week. I just wish I had done this with Coop but then I guess there was no reason to (or so I thought )
Jo - Happy Birthday babe for yesterday. I know how hard a birthday is when we don't have our angels with us. Happy 6 months Birthday Storm.
Auntie M - good luck with the dreaded 2ww. I hope you get a beautiful BFP at the end. I have everything crossed for you I am doing ok - thanks for thinking of me
Klee - you are hilarious, posting to yourself!!!! What's going on there! How are you doing anyway?
Bailey - where are you!!!!!! We miss you!!!!
Susan - Congrats! A line is a line. What CD are you? You should do a HPT with FMU.
Hey Lynn, I am so glad to hear Hope is doing so well You will have to scan the photos and email them to me... I got to see lil Spring so its only fair I get to see Hope as well And I agree the whole work thing is a total inconvenience in life and just plain wrong - but yes it does keep us occupied and from a personal point of view helps distract me from how s**t life is at the moment! And you are right, assisted conception isnt the way we hope to conceive our bubs - but at the end of the day as long as they are conceived and born healthy how can we complain? We are lucky to be in this day and age.
hey there lynn sorry i dont now what fmu stands for yet
im cd half way but its been 4 weeks since i have had my d&c i think my cycle is allover the place.i just went on my small bleed after my d&c.... but my symptoms are very alike as the last one. they did go away after my d&c and they have been back the last couple of days. so dont know what this means lets just hope hey....
hope all your emotions have settled down now and i see you and bubs are doing a fine job there.keep it up
Britkane - i hope this is a BFP for you ! I fell 6 weeks after my D&C if that is any hope and hey why not - it may all be happening for you. I am praying that it is. But how can you wait another week to test again - i would be too excited. Cant wait to hear some more positive news.
Mel - how are you? I cant wait until your FS appt at the end of the month. I am sure all your questions will be answered (like "how did we get here") and they will get you on the road of a BPF. At least you are doing something to get your bean in there. It wont be long you know that.
As for naming my bean - i haven't thought of it yet....any suggestions?
Rowie - i think i ate a sausage roll and croissant for everyone on BB. I cant believe i (well, we) ate so much...such piggies.
Lynn - hope you are feeling better. You are ticking away there girl. It is going quick (well, all in hindsight). Will you make the S&K meeting next week ?
To all you other ladies - good luck with getting your BFP's this month. I hope there are a few more here soon. Have fun DTD at the same time.
Tommysmum - You gotta have a nickname! Suggestions... what about "lil Zhen"? Zhen means "precious" in chinese - and what could be more precious than your little bean? Anyway, maybe the others have some suggestions?
I cant wait for my appointment either, and I will let you know all about it And I have to admit that the only thing getting me through is that we are doing something! It is so frustrating but I just know deep down it will happen one day
Jo - hope you have a nice one and can celebrate your special day with at least a lil smile
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for you, I hope the weeks pass as quickly as possible and as I said victory will be yours.
The meeting last night was good, we didnt get home until 1am
The meeting went until about 11.30pm or something and then by the time we stood out the front chatting and then had to drive home... OMG, I am sooooooo tired atm!!!!! Anyway, I can tell you all about it on Saturday. We were laughing too cause I said that I am pretty sure before chatterbox (me
) started going they were finishing much earlier LOL. Hope you are having an ok day today
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You will have to scan the photos and email them to me... I got to see lil Spring so its only fair I get to see Hope as well
And I agree the whole work thing is a total inconvenience in life and just plain wrong - but yes it does keep us occupied and from a personal point of view helps distract me from how s**t life is at the moment! And you are right, assisted conception isnt the way we hope to conceive our bubs - but at the end of the day as long as they are conceived and born healthy how can we complain? We are lucky to be in this day and age.
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