I agree, Nat!! Sometimes I do feel crazy though.............but when I think about it, I think I always have.

I had a little tear reading your post but it is so true for me too. I have some very special close friends but at the moment I just feel like I am closer to you girls because you know what I am feeling, thinking and going through. I was telling my mum last night about our long lunch and she said that she is so happy that I have found such wonderful supportive friends that are helping me through this.

My mum will be home in 1 hour and 15 mintues (but whos counting!) - yipee God I have so much to tell her - hope she didn't have any plans for tonight. I have had a big couple of weeks so I think it will be a quite emotional night telling her everything that has happened. I will also be telling her that she can't go on her overseas holiday in May because 5 weeks is too long for me No I would never be that selfish but I don't know what I am going to do - 10 days was bad enough. Maybe I have to go with her