I am sorry I haven't been around today. I have read your posts but haven't had time to answer them as I wanted to.
Lyn I know today has been really hard and I am just so sorry. Please know you are in my thoughts :hugs:
Mel: I have been thinking of you all day. I looked at Nicholas's photo gallery. He is such a beautiful little boy - I was crying loudly at the end... My heart is breaking for you and Lyn and Bailey and all of the beautiful women in here. Just know you have been with me all day... :hugs:
Bailey: I know today has been hard for you too. :hugs:
Nat: I have had you on my mind a lot over this past week. What is happening for you? Are you still on your meds or have you ceased them? Thankyou for asking after me. I am feeling okay. My husband is overseas for 10 days so it's busy at the moment here. My bleeding is almost over and tonight is my first dose of clomid so here we go again... Thinking of you
Love to you all. I will come back tomorrow when I have a little more time...
Hi everyone,
Thanks for all of your thoughts. It seems as if we have all had a bad day together. Today was actually harder than I thought it would be. AF arrived too I guess that is what made it that bit harder as I was hoping I would be pregnant by now. But not to be. I am going to try not to let it get me down, this has only been my first month of TTC and it does give me an extra month for my cesarean scar to get a little stronger.
Mel - How are you feeling now? Your poem is beautiful and so sad. I'm sorry you got AF too. I hope your DH is ok, thursday seems too far off for you two to have to wait to see the doctor. I am sure everything will be ok.
Lynn - A big Happy Birthday to you, even though I know you don't really feel like celebrating. Thanks for your sms today. It made me cry, but in a nice way. I really really hope that AF doesn't arrive for you, I have my fingers crossed for you. I hope you get good results tomorrow.
Spring - How are you feeling today. What has Lil Spring been up to? Are you feeling any better? I hope so.
Dream & Flowerchild - Thanks for thinking of me today, it means alot.
Well, as we said, we've all had a shocker today, but it's almost over so we can all try to have a fresh start tomorrow.
Firstly Lynn I want to say but I also want to respect how difficult today must have been for you. I hope that today was a kind to you as could be. Big :hugs:
Mel: You deserve a bloody break! I am so sorry that today was difficult for you but I am glad that you got some time out at your sisters on the weekend and some time away from the kids. You have survived today and that is a massive acomplishment. I know you are worried about DH, but I remember how positive you were when I found the lump in my breast, so it is my turn to send you the positive vibes.
Bailey: How are you today honey? I have been thinking about you and dear little Asha today. Just know that I care about you and I hope that you had an ok day.
Nat: It is nice to hear from you, how are you? You are such a sweetie and you say such kind words. I can't wait to meet you at the Sydney catch up.
Flowerchild: Thanks for helping me out last night, you are such a kind woman. I am glad that your bleeding has stopped. I hope you are coping with your Hubby away.
Well I am feeling completely exhausted and emotional. I haven't had anymore spotting but it put such a terrible fear in me that I just feel stuffed. The storm last night went on and on and I was up until 3.30am (no word of a lie) trying to stop him barking and freaking out. I have spoken to my vet today and we are going to try some mild sedatives on him. The big issue is that he is going to end up hurting himself so I have to do something. DH is also just really down at the moment, he seems so upset. I am glad I am going to see him tomorrow but I hate the fact that I have to leave him.
Oh well, 5 1/2 weeks down, 13 1/2 to go until he is home. I am also starting to really worry about my 12 week scan which is a week today. I don't know how I am going to cope if there is anything wrong.
I think I am just overtired and emotional. I have to get up at about 5.00am tomorrow so that I can catch an early plane so off to bed for me.
Bailey - I am so sorry you have had a rough day. I have been thinking of you, Asha and Lynn today as I knew we were all experiencing such heartache today. I am also sorry AF showed, I understand how hard it is to get through the days, especially days like today, when you so desperately want that baby in your arms, or at the very least growing in your tummy, but I have to believe it will happen for all of us very soon. :hugs: to you today.
Spring - Thanks for your positive vibes, I hope they work. I dont think I could get through if anything happened to him, I know it sounds dramatic but it has crossed my mind. That is pretty crap that you got so little sleep last night, the sedatives might be a good thing and like you said if anything for their own sake. I know tomorrow will be tough, I think it is a good thing you get see DH but saying goodbye is so hard when you have only had a few hours together. Sleep well tonight - I will be thinking of Harrison tomorrow and sending you all a huge
Lynn - You are a very special person and I am also sending you more huge :hugs:
Deb & Nat - I am sorry I made you teary, and thank you for your kindness
Thank you again to everyone for their birthday wishes. I too wish you could give me the best present ever.............but I know you can't. Cooper was in my heart today and will be in my dreams tonight.
Spring - I'm so glad that there is no more spotting. I hope your boys are ok tonight and that they give you some sleep. Sounds like you will need it with your early flight. I know that you want DH to be there for your 12 week scan but I hope I can provide you with some support. I know that you have some fears but just know that I will be there for you for all the good news that you will receive, because that is all that you are going to hear - good news!!. It will be a tough day but we will get through it together, one step at a time :hugs: Get a good nights sleep. Big hugs to you tomorrow. I will be thinking of you.
Mel - hope you are doing ok
Bailey - love your positive thinking. I really do think I need to be a bit more positive. It is just so hard at the moment but I think I will try to wake up tomorrow and smile.
Deb - thank you for thinking of me. How are you going? I hope you are feeling ok - thinking of you.
I hope you girls dont mind but I really need to get something off my chest that has been bothering me all day and right now I am sitting here crying about it, and it has just been made worse by a text message from my friend in Brisbane...
You girls are the only ones who have acknowledged Nicholas' 6 month birthday/anniversary today My friend just messaged me a beautiful thing saying basically she didnt know what to say but she thought it best to tell that than to say nothing which was a perfect thing to say. But I have heard nothing from my family or DH's family, I totally feel like everyone has forgotten and it really upsets me. I feel so alone, I like to think people understand me but let me stop fooling myself, they dont. I feel like I am going through all of this alone and I know everyone tries to support me but what about today? This whole weekend has been bad - actually the whole past month or 2 have been bad and I dont even know what I want or expect from people, but maybe just a little bit more than I am getting.
Sorry but I needed to get that out so that I can hopefully stop crying all the time and getting more and more depressed with every day, minute, second that goes by.
Mel - I am so sorry that you are feeling like this. I wish I could give you a big hug and tell you that it is all going to be ok
I'm sorry that your family did not acknowledge Nicholas' 6 months birthday. Please don't feel alone, you know that you have all of us here to support you every step of the way. I know that family is important and that you want their support and perhaps they were like your friend and didn't know what to say, but instead of telling you this, they didn't say anything at all which is the worst. I'm sure they were thinking of you and Nicholas.
I know how it feels because I got the same on Cooper's 3 month birthday but I just thought that people were thinking of me and Cooper and just didn't say anything - that is what got me through. My mum acknowledged it but that was it, no-one else except for you guys - no friends or family. One friend emailed me the day after and asked how I was doing and said that she was thinking of me on his birthday but was too busy to ring (WTF!) how hard is it to find 2 minutes!!! Another friend rang me the day after and asked how I was going (but not knowing what the date was) and I told her that the day before was a hard day and she asked why.......................when I told her what day it was, she said oh yeah it was too.
I have come to the realisation that unless you go through something like this, you don't understand. I mean how could they, but sometimes it would be nice if they could try. Even yesterday my MIL upset me because she told me that it is hard on her and my FIL to see me unhappy all the time and it isn't fair on my mum and dad to see me like this. What does she think - that I enjoy being unhappy!!!! And is it fair on me for feeling like this!!!! Is it fair that I am going through this! Does she want me to put on a happy face and pretend that everything is ok????
Mel I am so sorry that people have made you feel like this and I hope you are having a better day today. Unfortunately people are just insensitive and it hurts us but we are strong and we will get through each day together. Take care and I'm thinking of you today.
I hope everyone is having a better day than yesterday! It wouldn't be hard would it!
Happy 5 months birthday Harrison, send your mummy and daddy lots of hugs and kisses and help them get through the next few months.
Spring - I am thinking of you, DH and Harrison today. I hope you had a nice flight to Canberra and that you are enjoying your time with DH. I know today will be a hard day but I am sending you a big Take care babe.
I know today has been really hard and I am just so sorry. Please know you are in my thoughts :hugs:
Hi everyone,
I guess that is what made it that bit harder as I was hoping I would be pregnant by now. But not to be. I am going to try not to let it get me down, this has only been my first month of TTC and it does give me an extra month for my cesarean scar to get a little stronger. 
My friend just messaged me a beautiful thing saying basically she didnt know what to say but she thought it best to tell that than to say nothing which was a perfect thing to say. But I have heard nothing from my family or DH's family, I totally feel like everyone has forgotten and it really upsets me. I feel so alone, I like to think people understand me but let me stop fooling myself, they dont. I feel like I am going through all of this alone and I know everyone tries to support me but what about today? This whole weekend has been bad - actually the whole past month or 2 have been bad and I dont even know what I want or expect from people, but maybe just a little bit more than I am getting.
Hi Everyone!
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