Hi Kristee,
I am so sorry that you are feeling so low at the moment. I too had a bad week where I just felt, well the only word I could think of was lost. I sometimes wonder if I am greiving right and worry that one day it will catch up with me and I will break down. I just wanted you to know that you are not alone with your feelings. I don't really have anything I can say to you that can help, but I just wanted you to know that however lonely you feel, all of us here will always be here for you and although we all have different stories the ending is the same. I hope you can get out of this horrible place soon. Take care.