HeybackO you are a sweetie. I just want you to all know that I am with you every step of the TTC way no matter what.
Oh and ladies, there is a lady who has posted in the Miscarriage, Stillbirth and Loss forum under the In Memory of Angels Babies. She just lost her baby at 18 weeks last Tuesday and I think she could really do with some support. A few of us have replied but I thought I would let you know about her so that the gang could rally together and help her out. Her name is GKS.
Spring - I will not tell you again. We love to hear about lil Spring, it gives us all hope that we can do it too. I for one feel very lucky that I can be here with you, and everyone, through this long, hard journey all together. Besides, we all have a vested interest in Lil Spring now, so you can't go anywhere!!
For the Sydney chicks, we are trying to organise another catch up. Check out the catch up thread.
Spring - you are not going anywhere!!!!! We need all the lil Spring vibes. That is excellent that lil Spring is bouncing around in there. The little guy was probably just catch up on some zzzzzzzzzz.
I am not up to doing personals sorry.
I have not posted in a while. I am having trouble coping at the moment. I have realised that i haven't dealt with or grieved any of my losses and i am just feeling so low at the moment. I feel so lost.
I hate myself for not even aknowledging their existance to try and ease the pain and forget about them. How could i do that they were real human beings?? They deserve better, maybe thats why they were taken from me.
i have no idea how to bring myself to grieve them, i have just had them locked up in a dark box in my heart that was never to be opened. I have been battling this since i last posted. I just feel so alone, i don't know anyone that has been through this, then again not many people know i have.
It seems that i am just lost and don't fit in anywhere. I love them, or do i? if i did i don't think i would've done this to them. I am sitting here crying not knowing what to do .
Searching to work out who i really am and what type of person i really am.
Am i ever going to be able to grieve them? I thought it would be best if i just forgot them, but i can't.
What a terrible person i am for doing this. I feel like i need to punish myself now for how i have punished them.
I have not spoken to anyone about how i am feeling not even DH and that is probably wrong as well.
Anyway enough rambling and whinging from me. Sorry it is so self absorbed. I just think i needed some where to vent and here seemed the best place.
I am currently in the 2WW as well- so that is probably not helping.
I just have to add..Bailey at least you brought a smile to my face about the Golden pig on the spit.
Hi Kristee,
I am so sorry that you are feeling so low at the moment. I too had a bad week where I just felt, well the only word I could think of was lost. I sometimes wonder if I am greiving right and worry that one day it will catch up with me and I will break down. I just wanted you to know that you are not alone with your feelings. I don't really have anything I can say to you that can help, but I just wanted you to know that however lonely you feel, all of us here will always be here for you and although we all have different stories the ending is the same. I hope you can get out of this horrible place soon. Take care.
Hi Kristee, I am glad that you came back. Grief is such an unpredictable thing. It can strike you just when you feel like you are recovering. The only thing I can suggest is perhaps it might be worth talking to someone like a counsellor who can help you work through the mixed emotions you are having. I sought help after I had Harrison, and although it was really hard at first, I realised that I needed help to learn to deal with my grief. This is not something that you have to face alone.
Talking is really important so keep talking to us. We are all here for you.
Im so sorry Ive been MIA life is just going so fast at the moment. Ihave only had a quick look at the threads and boy do I have alot to catch up on!!! I have missed you girls so much and do think about you all each and every day.
Dancing with the stars is on so Im goin to pop in and out tonight, i wasnt going to watch but........im a tv show junkie i mean big brother, DWS, biggest losser!!! You would think I had nothing better to do.
Deb Hows it all going? where are you at? I need to answer one question you asked about 150 post ago.....how much stuf will I be on/was on, metformin-3000mg per day, clexcane 40mg inj daily but last conversation with Dr S this will increase to what not to sure mybe double, preds.- 25mg per day as well as fish oil tables, multi which has been formulated for me, folate 5mg b12 1000iu b6 350mg. And by sept who knows what! What are you on? Hows the family and what are you baking today!
Spring Hows that little bundle growing? Did I read that you told work? hows that all going? whens your next scan?
Lynn Left you a message talk later tonight.
Bailey Hows married life going? hows that little boy going? Im sorry you got AF I was praying that it would be you so maybe this month?
Mel Hows that house going? Sorry to hear all not going to plan, I praying so hard for you. I need to catch up on the MIL situ!
To all the girls that I have not personal to just yet, please dont think Im rude I just need to catch up on who is here, I do hope you are all do ok. I will be back to catch up! DH just made me a cup of tea, cant knock that back not like it happens every day!!
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