Hi Kristee, I am glad that you came back. Grief is such an unpredictable thing. It can strike you just when you feel like you are recovering. The only thing I can suggest is perhaps it might be worth talking to someone like a counsellor who can help you work through the mixed emotions you are having. I sought help after I had Harrison, and although it was really hard at first, I realised that I needed help to learn to deal with my grief. This is not something that you have to face alone.

Talking is really important so keep talking to us. We are all here for you.

Luv :hugs:
Spring