Thanks, Pee & Dachlostar. I hope it won't come to that either but I rather have a big happy family living some where for rent than put of having more kids, be miserable but have a nice beachfront house.

When it rains it pours - another $hit day biz wise, I seem to be getting some kind of chest cold (really nasty cough, hope Wolf doesn't get it) and I've been having all sorts of weird pains in my nether-regions and have had bleeding which freaks me out since I worry about my pap result massively. My obgyn said that he took quite a deep sample for the pap and I don't know whether he made my uterus a bit angry or whether I'm getting my period again or what's the deal. Wolf didn't sleep well at all last night and wanted to feed every 2 hours. I got about 1/2 hour of sleep and I feel like I'm just falling apart - physically and mentally. If I didn't have my beautiful baby boy I would lie in bed and cry and mope but I can't do that (and I don't want to because he makes me so happy).

Dachlostar, you made me laugh about DH wanting to move to the country or moving back to Afghanistan. Sounds like some of the crazy ideas Monkey comes up with sometimes. He keeps on having all these business ideas (definitely lots of entrepreneur-spirit there) and he gets upset when I don't get excited about it. One time he wanted to seriously buy some Mango-farm up in Queensland and become a Mango Farmer .... :roll:

Oh, to add to the list of things going wrong for me: I also have a cavity it turns out and I will need a cap... first one ever... there go my immaculate teeth... *SIGH*

Sorry for the monster whinge girls. I'm actually starting to dread our dear friends coming over because they have a biz in Brisbane that's going really well and are raking in the money and I fear I will get all jealous ... I really shouldn't be .. it's all just material things... but somehow I fear I might not be able to remind myself of all the good things in my life.. not with the way I'm feeling at the moment... Someone send me some positive vibes...

Snowy