Precedent tells me that the disturbed sleep patterns means a big grow is coming. Lila still doesn't sleep like she was, I'm beginning to think its not that I moved her to the cot. Last night she fed/comfort sucked for hours and hours, if I took her off she'd get very upset. Luckily DH has hooked up the wireless net, so I can lie in bed and feed and do net stuff. I'm feeding right now. Anyway, last night she was down for the count at 8pm which is three hours early and I knew I was in for it. Tried to sleep but couldn't since I'm used to going to bed at midnight. Finally drifted off at my usual bedtime only to be up again at 2am. Up for three hours, then at 5 went back to the big bed to do what's become the usual doze-eat pattern. Bah. I don't like this at all.

At least she's a happy little bear. When she was up last night she was smiley and giggly and bright eyed, could have been fussy. She spends more time laughing than crying so that's something. And the crying is always solved with a cuddle and/or boobie.

Cracked it the other day at DH, I was already pretty upset about stuff and then the last straw broke the camel's back as it were. The next day I had heaps of me time, did some shopping for extremely silly things (lacy things and sweet smelling things) and had lunch out with a friend. Made all the difference.

Am looking to get a Mei Tai. Does anyone else have one? Heard anything about them good or bad? They're so cool/nice looking, I think I have my fabrics narrowed down. And I want a good sling that doesn't kill my shoulders after an hour. The one I have now is ok, but I can't have her in it the way I used to and when I have her upright it puts weird pressure on my shoulders and slips down.

Janine- I'm interested in this continuim concept, could you sum it for me in a few sentences maybe? If you don't mind that is... I had a really messy, unhappy upbringing and I'm determined to do everything in my power to raise a happy, well-adjusted little girl who knows her mummy loves her.

Beatrix- You poor thing. Its just one thing after another, you're wonderwoman to me. I wish I was closer, I'd offer to come help out or something.

MGM- I never could do those ready-made swaddles. I'm hopeless. A gay mid-man (?) in the hospital showed me how to wrap, its never done me wrong. And gave me a lot of confidence that I could handle her less than gently without her caring too much. I had been touching her like she was made of gold-gilded crystal.

Grubi- I guess it would be ok if she continued to sleep with us if MIL would take her. But Dh and I have adult time nearly every night and doing without it really throws us both off for the whole next day. I suppose if she sticks to half and half that would be an ok compromise.

Ack more personals to do but gtg.... hope all is well.