Was feeling a bit bored - DP has gone away for three months, so I thought I'd read up on how everyone is going.
My Lil man is 1 on Friday 9th, can't believe it has gone so quicick. This time last year I was in King Edward waiting to pop him out.... Atm he is standing for a few sweconds and is only walking when holding onto something or pushing something along. Luke goes to bed around 7.30pm and is up at 7am... He then has a morning sleep around 9.30 for an hour and another sleep around 1.30pm for another hour or so.
As for myself I'm not feeling the best these days. I don't know what it is. I feel down and have no appetite - basically have had to force myself to eat and that's only once a day. I'm just generally not happy. I'm spose to be doing my course but, I have no motivation to get into it any more. I dont know if it is because we moved so far away from everyone. It's all sorta started around January. We had some family come up during the week and they noticed that I've changed from when they saw me at xmas time. They said I've become very insecure within myself and towards DP. I went and bought some vitamins yesterday coz I thought that might pick me up a bit and help with the lack of food.
It's not a lonely thing because I am surropunded by very friendly neighbours who come over frquently. I also take Jake to swimming lessons on a monday and playgroup on a wednesday. So I'm meeting lots of ppl.
My aunt passed away last week from drinking herself to death (long time alco). My friends also lost their first baby at 20 weeks. They went to the 18/20 week scan and found there was no heart beat. So she was rushed to surgery to have it removed. I have also learnt that my mum is addicted to prescription drugs. I always knew this but, yesterday was the first time I'd actually heard my dad admit it to me. So with all this negative things around me - i guess it isn't helping......
Sorry to go on but, i just neede to let it out somewhere........Thanks for listening
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