Hi girls,

A short one for me, just cut and pasted from my belly buddies, lazy I know

Well I have had a pretty *****ty day, just feeling really bleugh, nothing in particular. Lily is really getting to me with her whinging, she literally follows me around whinging and if I don't pick her up she gets louder and starts to cry and scream just to be picked up. If I sit with her, try to distract her it doesn't work. She just wants me to hold her and do the stuff I'm doing. And my back is too sore to do that. She just destroys stuff too. She had a sippee cup of milk and arrowroot bickie before and I sat her on her beanbag to watch 'in the night garden' I recorded for her, so I could at least prepare dinner, and after 5mins or so I looked over the lounge to check on her (I can see from the kitchen), thinking she's being so good! And you know what?? There was milk and arrowroot bickie everywhere squished into the floor...on my cream rug. I have managed to keep it clean and nice for a whole 14mths!!!! Arrrgh!!!!!
We had a two hour wake up at 4am this morning thankfully she went back to sleep at about 5.45. As well as the other times I was up with her. Again I was in tears of frustation. DH got home at 6.45 and she woke up and let me sleep til 7.15 before he was too tired to stay up.
A good thing though today, my mum came over this morning and helped me clean up the house. She got to see Lily at her tantrum throwing, cling on best for a change. I don't think she believed me that she was so bad at home. She's usually really good at mums house (of course!!) but today she got to see what she's like for me. She kept on asking me 'what's wrong with her??'. Of course there was nothing worng that was just a normal day. So now she understands why it's so hard for me to get into any kind of routine for cleaning. She used to keep on saying I don't know why you're not in a routine yet, clean when she sleeps, clean when she goes to bed for the day. It's hard to get into a routine when I'm hugely pg and with a screaming toddler on my hip. And when I'm so tired from being up between 2-7 times a night still, sometimes for hours at a time. When she sleeps, I sleep.

Anyway, enough with the whinging.

I hope everyone is feeling ok.