ok .. i dont like hearing how sick kellie and family have been ... i really hope you all recover soon ... just rest up kel, and try and get some rest and new dvd's !!

well , i havent been "sleep deprived" as such but with gabriella being really fussy and nixon chucking a million tanties a day i have been really stressed .. a few days back gab fed every 30 mins in the evening and woke screaming through the night .. i jsut had to feed her , but then she has bad wind so she was inconslable (sp) and i was getting stressed , to top it off the next day DH hurt his back and was unable to move so i had to pick up the slack and do everything ... that night gabby had a crying fit and wanted to feed allll the time , so i tried to express and about 15mls each side came out .... and each feed she would suck so hard then cry so i thought i must be low on milk .... before i went to bed i took maxalon went to bed and tried to realx but ended up with panic attacks , a sure sign i am taking on waay to much ... i hope this doesnt turn in to ocd and pnd again ... but im not sure if it was the maxalon that gave me the panic attacks , but im not taking it again to find out!!

in the end i gave into dh's pressure to get formula so i sent my mum to get some of the RTD formula , i didnt want to get a whole tin so i got the popper ones .. and gave her some at the last feed before bed .. she didnt take the whole feed only about 60mls .. but that was enough to fill her up and clam down .. the next day and ever since she has been settled .. it was soo good to see her awake and not crying .. it may have just been a growth spurt.. she also has conjuctivitis...

so for now i am feeding from the right and expressing the left as her hungry days left it soo sore .. by i have some milk in the fridge a freezer and will get a to up of ebm before bed jic ...

i can not get gab to sleep in the cradle so for now the velcro girl is in the bed still , (danielle , gabriella is made of velcro too !!!!)