hi all ,

danielle i hope your nipple gets better soon .. it sounds sooo painful ..
I have to see a specialist in toowong sometime this week or soon , both for me and Gabriella ..
I saw a clinc nurse monday and G was 4 kgs .. so 500grams since birth .. its not heaps but not too little kwim .. so i got sent to a LC as i said i am thinking of weaning from my left boob , i just cant stand the pain it brings , and we went over the symptoms ive been having and have ruled out mastits, thrush , vasospam and poor attachment ...

she believes i have poor protractility of the nipple , meaning it doesnt stretch as much as it should , each feed G makes clicking sounds and is fussy the milk dibbles out her mouth and she swallows heaps of air ... but on the right side i could feed upsidedown in water while doing backstroke if i felt like it and not have any problems ...
and seeing as i had the same problem feeding nix i better get it checked .. and she still feed every 30mins when she is awake , her longest sleep being the night time one and early morning

Gabriella is still really spewy and often projectile vomits .. and it always happens after feeding from the left side and it seems to always be around 3am and when there are clean sheets on the bed ..so i am geting her checked for reflux ..

nixon is ****inf me off sooooooo bad right now , he isnext to me chucking the biggest tanty because i wouldnt let him spray powder all over the room, so now he is hitting me and pulling the cord on my hoody from my jumper , which he has pulled all the way out .. grr his tantys are soo often these days .. i try to play with him , but hes always played by himself and quite happy to do so .. he never really wants my attention when i want to give it to him , but when i cant really give my attention to him is when he wants it .. he wont take a day nap in a big bed , only when we are out in the car he will sleep in the day .. so by the time i have to pick dh up he is feral .. its only a short drive to the station and usually he is asleep by the time we get there , so is asleep in the car at about 5.30-6ish then have to wake him and is cranky all through dinner , then after his bath doenst want to go to bed and chucks tanties ...

its sooo draining and im over it , i just dont know what to do ..

Milly : i use Baby BeeHinds ...and they are great , i dont like using pockets or nappies with microfleece in them as nix gets rashy and can smell a bit after heaps of use ... I have gone through my nappy stash and thrown out all the magic alls that are old and not as good as they used to be .. imo the nappies with the man made materials dont last as long as fitteds.... the fitteds are too big for gabriella right now , probably when she gains another kilo or so she eill fit them but right now she is in bambino mio and fitteds from pookey pockets and ones that my friend has made ...
she is still in 0000 but her feet are long so dont really fit the all in one suits , but ive been buying heaps in 000 as she will be that size before i know it and the summer is long out in ipswich so she should be able to wear it all by the way shes growing , i dont think she will be a heffer just yet ...

Im still using huggies newborn here and there , mostly at night and she still fits them perfectly but when i finish the pack i will get the aldi ones as back up .. we use a sposie on nix if its been raining or ive run out of nappies .. or when hes has a shuge drinkl of milk before bed .. other wise its a bbh with a booster and a fleece cover ... i do have wool ones but they are pretty bulky on an already bulky kid ...

poor gab , she is asleep next to me and has wind , she is pulling faces like shes about to cry then it looks like she is smiling and her eyes flicker open ..

we whent and brought heaps of play things for nix , like thouse plastic slides and cubby houses , and a picnic table .. but ever since we brought them its rained so i cant take him out side to play because everythign is wet ...

its overcast today and i have plonked nix infront of the telly ... i feel bad (well i feel judged ) if i admit to how often i put the tv on for him ...

seeing as hes up early each morning , i put the cartoons on on my room so he can be in bed with me while i snooze usually a few hours a day he watches tv while playing ... is that bad .. i am forever wondering if it is as damaging as the experts say it is ...

why do"child health experts" like to make mums feel guilty ...