I had the biggest teary last night we moved Allegra from the bassinet to the cot in her own room. When I looked over at the empty bassinet it made me cry then I looked at the empty spot where it used to be next to our bed and I cried THEN I thought about her being all alone in her cot and cried then I thought about how I will never again have that little baby next to my bed making squeeky baby noises in their sleep because we're not having anymore and guess what I CRIED. DF cuddled me to comfort me I really felt silly but he understood
i so understand kel BIG HUGS i havnt moved josh yet normally i have moved the kids at 8 weeks old but i just cant seem to do it. I keep thinking he is getting too big but i still cant move him. Mind you he has only grown 7cm's since birth. I am just lucky that he isn't rolling yet or else i would have to move him. I am scared that i wont be able to see him. Silly yeah especially being baby 4 but that doesn't mean i care any less IYKWIM.

I had the excuse for a while the cot is full of the cupboard food but its been empty for some time now. Then it was, i have to get him used to the cot during the day and i have been and Josh loves it and goo's and gahhh's all the time, he loves the butterfly mobile too. So whats my excuse.... UMMMM i cant see him. We have a night light next to my bed so i can see him Now as soon as i open my eye's at night and if he is in his room i wont be able to see if he had pulled anything over his face or check to see if he is breathing. Yeah CrAzY me.... i wake up at night and sorta poke him to check. I pray all the time that he is protected at night and will still be with me when i wake int he morning. Sometimes i get myself all worked up that i cant even sleep i just want to watch him and make sure he is alright.

Now i have a new excuse not to move him... our Room has no windows only French doors to the porch and a air con which we don't use. It needs a good clean dunno if it even works!!! Our room is connected by French doors into Josiah's room where there is two windows near his cot. So obviously in this humid weather we sleep with them open but wont be able to when josh goes in there. This is sorta a good thing but sorta a bad thing. So what to do move the cot yeah, ya could do that but there really isn't anywhere else for it to go in that room the draft will still be passing the cot IYKWIM. So ahhh i guess the cot has to come into our room till this warm weather is over hey. I am sorta happy but sorta not. Mind you ill be happy i can see him some what at night. Ill have to move my chair and foot stool out of my room and where his cot is. Ill only be able to see the end of the cot not him directly in our room. I guess that maybe progress.

There is another option take DS3 out of his room and put him in Josiah's room and joshie share with DS7 i think DS7 would LOVE that! He sleeps through everything ad all noise but that would mean i am a whole doorway and hallway 2 walls and another door away from josh and i cant bear that right yet! PLUS heres another excuse or is it? DS3 would have to walk through our room to his room HRMMMMM. or maybe i could unblock the door in the Kitchen and then Block off the door in our room but then ya have the air issue hrmmm. Cant win I do have windows on top of our door that connects to Josiah's room that we could open tho.

The eventual goal is to move josh in with the boys but need to wait till DS3 is older so he doesn't give him small things when i am NOT looking IYKWIM

any ideas anyone? yeah i think this is doing my head in i guess i am just not ready. Plus i don't really want to have to get up get dressed to walk to DS7's room to get josh even if it is every 2nd week. I am obviously NOT ready????

Who here has rolling babies? JOSHIE is good at holding his head up and sitting for short periods of time.

Oh yeah i sorta had a period started with day 1 brown spot then day two spotting red, then late day 2 a gush then NOTHING then day 3 nothing day 4 a brown bit

BTW 8 feeds so far today so maybe 1 or 2 more for josh