Misty - I completely, totally understand where you're coming from. I have 3 under 5 so a bit older but still it's pretty much the same here, my youngest are both under 2 so I have two in nappies, am breastfeeding 2 etc.

I have made much more of an effort this time to get out on my own and do the things I enjoy. I made that mistake with DS1 who was not a very settled newborn and had a few sleeping issues. I let it really restrict my life and now that I've experienced that, I know that it's all just a temporary state and to make sure I have a bit of 'myself' through it all.

DH is great and encourages me to go out on my own but there are often stretches when that's just not possible because I have to work around him. I haven't had any 'me' time without the kids for 3 weeks now because DH has had stuff on or we've had family commitments. I am really looking forward to tomorrow because I am going to express so I can miss a feed and am heading out shopping on my own (and might even manage a pedicure ) It's so, so important to do these things.

We are also going away for the weekend in a few weeks - we're renting a house on Lake Macquarie and spending 2 nights. I NEVER would have done that when DS1 was a baby because like you said the stress of it all didn't seem worth it. But now I've changed my attitude and I think that no matter what happens, we'll survive it and you never know - we just might end up having a fantastic weekend. You don't know until you try

Anyway, I'm not trying to lecture you, just saying that I really understand