Hi all.

Today is not a good day. Permission to whinge?

It was the First Parents Group meeting today, the one that the MCHN organises, and I'd been really looking forward to it. I get so lonely here with just Laura Rose, even though she's the light of my life. I wanted to meet other adults and TALK and be friends with people...
Anyway, there were 15 or so other parents and babies, and we all sat in a big circle, and various babies started wailing (and stopped wailing, and were fed, and were changed, intermittently) and the MCHN talked to us about changes in our bodies/minds/emotions and then there was a bit of "free time", where we all chatted while babies kicked on the floor. It wasn't bad.

So why am I so unhappy?

Because I was the fattest person there, and because Laura Rose was the biggest baby there, and because I'd only made it into the shower and clothes half an hour before the meeting and was consequently really aware that my hair was wet and tied back. And because everyone else seemed to be slim and lovely and have makeup on. Even if some of them looked as though they hadn't slept for a year, I was still the least attractive person there. With the biggest baby. I have no idea why Laura's size is bugging me.
Oh well.
Tomorrow maybe things will be better.

What I really really want is just two hours completely to myself. Maybe to go to the gym or to have my hair cut. But I don't think that's ever going to happen.
End self pitying rant.
Anyone who wants to offer sympathy or, alternatively, to slap me with a wet fish and tell me to get a grip, will be happily listened to.
Kirsten