Hi Ladies and a warm welcome to all the newies.

Today, i felt like the worst mum ever. I sobbed over it too. Put Ela in her cot whilst we ate dinner and washed up. She was fine watching her mobile, playing and kicking around. Once finished doing the dishes i went in to her room to check on her and she was dozing off to sleep when i noticed she had thrown up and was lying in her mess. She had vomit all on one side of her face, her hair and the sheets. I felt so bad and began crying. Hubby got her ready for her bath whilst i sobbed. He said that she smiled at him, but how would i ever forgive myself for it?? I apologised to her at least a dozen times.

Kirsten- you got me all teary again. i know exactly how you feel. I would love to go and get my hair done but just don't have the motivation to do it. My mum keeps nagging me about my eyebrows and how they need a pluck, but why should i do it? I don't go out anywhere. I have made plans to get my roots done tomorrow (after 12 months, you can imagine the root length!) but i'm really waiting on how my mood is tomorrow. I too, admire other mums who have the energy and motivation to put on make up and dress up when they go out shopping but i am always last to get dressed when we go out anywhere so i don't bother as DH, Devrim and Ela are waiting in the car for me. I guess we need to snap out of it. Easy said then done. I am really afraid of getting PND again, so i try to think positive as i'll be returning back to work P/T in November and will then have to get dressed, pluck my eyebrows and put on lippy. Please stay positive and if need to go and see your GP. I know its hard being a first time mum but believe me it does get better. Some people may be pretty and slim, but its whats inside that counts. So what if Laura is a big baby? She is healthy isn't she?

Have to go now as Devrim is throwing a tantrum and hubby is yelling at him.

Hope you feel better Kirsten