Oops sorry to keep you all in suspense ladies....
I am, according to the test, NOT pregnant *dances and whoops woohoo!!!* But Ty didn't come up on the test for a few weeks and still no AF so I'm not getting too excited.... pray for me
I have had a seriously bad day (hence no post until now). Ty has done nothing but scream. Was awke crying every half hour last night. Would not go to sleep during the day. It's become a bad problem- only sleeps during the day after half an hour of screaming, then whimpers himself to sleep like I'm hurting him. It's breaking my heart I ended up at thr clinic today bawling my eyes out. The CHN- one i haven't seen before- has referred me to Trisiliian and 'demonstrated' today the settling method we will have to use. She popped him in his pram and tried to pat him to sleep. He screamed uncontrollably for a agood five minutes. I cried. She told me not to pick him up. I didn't. Then she ushered me out of her office into a busy shopping centre, telling me to just walk him until he went to sleep and don't pick him up. I couldn't get out of there fast enough. I picked up my sobbing, shaking baby boy and stood there and cried my eyes out. I'm so angry at her. Ty was hysterical. I'm angry at myelf too. I should have put a stop to it when he started to get into a state. I shouldn't have gone there in the first place. i know all the settling methods they use and I've tried them all. They don't work for Ty. And leaving him to cry like that was just cruel. So now I have a stressed, overtired baby, I'm still losing my mind and I'm expecting a call from Trisillian in a few days and I'm going to have to explain that I don't really want to go there.
I feel better now. Sorry for the anti climax pregnant news- I'll keep you updated on AF. If I found out I was pregnant today I might just throw myself off a cliff. Too exhausted to do personals. Going to have a good cry and come back later