hey hey
need some help
i have been thinking a bit the last week since AF has finally come back
i dont actually want another baby until jemima is ALOT older
BUT
everyone in my world wants me to have more kids now now now
my mum, my friends, my other rellies and most importantly benji
benji has wanted more babies since jem was 2 days old
i have been wrapped up in the idea too as in my world that is what you do - you have more babies and have AT MOST a two year age gap
but now i want to go on the pill, and benji has made it pretty clear he would LOVE more babies soon but is ok with waiting til jem is 3 (which means i get pregnant middle of next year) but i feel so so bad
i dont know what to do
do i go on the pill
or not go on the pill and see what happens..?? (it took 6 months off the pill to get pregnant with jemima)

this sucks - you all must be like - is that girl never happy!? all she has wanted for the last forever is to get AF back so she can get pregnant and now that she has she doesnt want to!

sorry