We haven't dtd in five weeks coz Terry doesn't want to. He barely touches me. Which is hurtful. My sex life is now al my own doing. Yeah that's fun I have given him an ultimatum. Either he sorts himself out and soon, or I'm gone.

Enough about me. Jeez I keep opening up my problems to you all. Its not fair.

Anyway, Elouise constantly kicks me when I change her nappy. It hurts. Damn I really have to figure out a way to keep her entertained, still and not kicking me.

Terry just got home and started talking to me and asking questions, to which I reply with I guess, ok and such, and I ask him to give me a few minutes to finish typing and then he says "obviously that's more important than me". To which I replied, "you just walked in the door and start b!tching at me and then you want me to pay full attention to you b!tching". Damn we have problems. And ages ago he kept going on about us going to counselling and when I suggested it yesterday, he doesn't even answer me. Its getting to the point where I want to just leave him. But Sydney is so damn expensive I will be struggling so hard, and also I've just started work and stuff. Its so hard. I don't want to leave as its going to be a huge struggle raising El on my own (of course he gets to see her) and pay bills and stuff, but I can't stay here and be unhappy. What do I do?