You think being a SAHM is tiring? Try looking after all the kids of those that work. Its exhausting. And then coming home to your very own cranky bub. Its very hard work. Not just sitting and playing. Its feeding solids to two at a time, each with their own bowl and spoon, getting bottles for them and feeding those that don't self-feed, changing nappies (older kids' poos STINK! I was gagging!) and charting sleeps. Putting kids to sleep is not easy. Its not, put them down and leave them. You gotta swaddle some arms in/arms out/on tummy/on back GOD! And pat their back or chest until they fall asleep. Then there's the crying. One starts and soon they all cry. It very hard work. And then you have some very insecure parents or career minded parents who take things too seriously or go over your head to the boss. Its like, treading on eggshells. Its not an industry that you get into if you're unsure of your career. I tell you what, babies are twice the work of 2-5 year olds. At least they can come to you and do heaps themselves. Yet for the moment I'm working with babies. And in between there's cleaning and laundry. So much cleaning and laundry! Its so much work. They want me to work five days a week after xmas, but I can't do it. Terry has uni mon and fri in feb, and I don't want to put El into childcare those days and then somehow figure out how to get her there and back, and have to look after her those nights after huge day at work and I'll only get to play with her and stuff on the weekend, meaning I can't do anything by myself ever. So I'll tell them no, I can only work those three days. I'll burn out if I work too much.

On another note, I'm going out with my only girlfriend who is not a mum on Saturday night. We're going out to meet people. We need new friends and hopefully I'll either meet a fella or meet someone who knows someone who I could meet. Coz I need to meet someone new. Not necessarily for a long term relationship, just for a nice casual friendship, some casual dates. What I've never had before. I fall for friends. This time I want friends and a man.

I'm buggered. 'Night ladies xxx