Congrats Sal on passing the 12week window

Well what can I say?? I have had a crappy couple of days emotionally - Brodie is doing OK and I am not going to get upset with him anymore at this point as I have come to the realisation that life is just far to short to be upset and being a baby is a yukky time for them - lucky they don't remember too much if any.

I received a phone call last Saturday from my Doctors asking me to come back in to see my doc - this is the phone call that most of us dread - i had, had a full blood count down on the Monday before as I have been feeling so poorly for such a long time that I thought it was time to have it investigated.

Unfortunately i have been diagnosed with Hypothyroidism- my thyroid is running 3 times slower than it should be- i nearly fell off the chair when they gave me the news.

I have put on 12kgs since having Brodie and have been really conscious (sp??) of what I have been eating and doing and this has been getting me down - NOW I KNOW WHY!!!

My sister was diagnosed with Graves/Hyperthyroidism after the birth of her first child and it seems that I have the flick of the coin of the same disease as her - thank God she has now overcome this dreaded feeling and is giving me hope to stay positive - however our symptoms as similar as they may be are still quite different - she lost 45kgs in 10weeks after child birth and her weight got down to 45kgs - this depressed her however society places so much pressure on us to be slim that I can now see the benefits of having that version of this disgusting disease, putting on weight is very rarely something people aspire too.

There are many other complications with this disease that i have started to research and the penny has finally dropped - i have felt like this for many many years however it has taken a birth to finally register with my bloods - the thyroid works in a crazy way but I am not going to bore you all with symptoms etc.

I am trying to stay positive as difficult as this may be - besides weight gain the main consequence of Hypo is depression and fatigue which I am fighting against - i am trying to stay strong but as you can well imagine - NO ONE WANTS TO BE SICK and least of all when you have a young child.

I have started my medication already and have to go back to the doctors in 6 weeks for another blood test hopefully this will show some changes...fingers crossed that the medication works and that i am on the correct meds as that is another story in itself - sometimes it can take many years to regulate the hormones and the medication is more a trial and error situation....

on a happier note - we have found a HOUSE - finally - we are moving in on the 2nd September so i have to start packing NOW - but need to find some boxes first - oh well if it doesn't rain it poors.

sorry for the selfish post just needed to get that off my chest - i can't believe my rotten luck but I refuse to give into this dreaded disease - wish me luck on my journey.....