Hi my name is Julie but always use the nick name Missy. Im 34 and DH is 35. We have been married for 2 years and are very happy. Ok here is my story.

At the Age of 17 I was told I had stage 3 or Sin3 as they called it back then, bordering Cervical Cancer. It scared the hell out of me. I also just started a new job as well which didnt help so I had to take a day off work to have half of my cervix taken out. I was meant to have at least a week off but was scare of loosing my job I went back the next day. Well biggest mistake of my life as that night I started bleeding (((flowing))) to ended up in hospital for a week. Work was not happy but what could they do.

After that I got an infection and felt like I was taking pills every month and then was told there was alot of scaring and it would be hard for me to fall Pg naturally. I was 17 so it didnt hit me that hard but it was going to.

About 4 years later I met a guy....not very nice one but anyway that is a totally different story and we started dating. I wasnt on the pill as I thought I wouldnt fall pg. I didnt want kids yet and hadnt been on the pill ever and had had a boyfriend before my daughters father and of cause nothing happened. Well nine months later I didnt get a AF and went to the doc and I was about 6 weeks pg...I sh*t myself as my last pap smear was inconclusive and they wanted to do another one. But of cause once I found out I was pg they didnt want to cause of my cervix. So I had the choice of terminating or waiting 9 months to see if My cancer had come back. I chose to have the baby and just hoped everything would be ok.

Melissa Joy was born 12/2/1994 5lb 4 1/2oz almost 5 weeks early by forcepts but was healthy and beautiful. Pap smear was done and all was clear. Her father and I broke up when she was 4 weeks old and havent see him since. I raised melissa with the help of my mum and dad until she was 18 months old and met my ex huddie. We were together 3years and then he had a head injury and became aggressive and I had to leave for my daughters sack. So once again another relationship over.

Its been just Me and Melissa for so long then she wanted to do ballroom dancing. So off to ballroom dancing we were going. Mel is about 9 now and was loving dancing. Out of the blue her teacher Matt Asked me out and I said yes. Well we started dating and about 6 months later missed a period. Did hp test and it came up ++++. So off the the doc for a check up and to get an altrasound as I was told 2 years before that I had endo and tubes where most probably blocked. So my doc sent me to have a altrasound and they couldnt find it. They said I might not be far enough alone but I knew some thing was wrong. Started to bleed 3 days later and went to the hospital. They did prg levels and said they were getting lower and I was miscarring. I was able to go home the next day and then I had to come back for a blood test to make sure levels kept coming down and I almost didnt go back as I was so sad but lucky I did as the levels went up again. They said that was a sign of eptopic pg. They operated straight away and yes the bub was in my left tube. They took both bub and tube out. I was so upset and wished that I had just miscarried. DH was shattered... I can remember the look on his face when I came out of the op and he was crying and said he loved me.

The next 6 months I couldnt handle it...I turned my back on DH and treated him like sh*t and kept doing it for 6 months untill he said he couldnt live like this anymore. He loved me but didnt want to be treated the way I was and it wasnt healthy. It scared me and I asked him to stay and I will change. We I did but it took alone time. The lose of that bub almost ended my marriage.

So marriage back on track, I have endo, one tube left ((blocked)) half a cervix and just thought having kids was out of the question. Also the fact that im a catholic IVF was a no no.

DH and I talked and decided to do IVF and made a promise to GOD that we would use all the eggs we got.

Started the IVF and doc got 13 eggs and 11 fertsed but 7 died. So that left us with 4 good embryo's. We had 2 implanted and my pg levels were through the roof. Had an altrasound and only one had taken and they couldnt find the other. About 6 weeks into the pg I start bleeding browny colour so my OB was doing scans every week till about 12 weeks when I stopped bleeding. I was getting huge pains in the right side as well and then it stopped at 12 weeks...

Anyway had Callum my baby boy 30/1/06 at 2:33 by c-section as his heart was really slow and he was born. 6lb 11oz and soooooo beautiful.

6 weeks later at OB check up, Doc told me why I was getting pain and bleeding. He found the other Embryo had floated back down the tube and implanted itself on my right ovary. He told me I has very lucky and blessed that it stopped growing about 10 weeks and he removed it.

I thank God everyday for my kids and have had one embryo impanted as one died after
taken out of being freezing and have just noticed some browny bleeding and am meant to go for PG test on monday. Spoke to nurse today and she said come in anyway for the test as its not red blood.

So that is my story and I so want to give DH another child but we only have one for egg left and not sure if i want to go through the hole cycle again. I just want to make him happy....

So that is it.... I have 2 lovely kids and if that is all i am to have so be it but I would love another so fingers crossed.

Thanks for taking the time to read my story.

Sorry bout spelling mistake as im rushing this abit before my son wakes up.

Take care all.

Missy