ok i'm going to post my little b1tch here as i know you will understand, today i am feeling just sooooo CRAPPY. I don't know why, my hormones are just all over the joint. I'm pi$$ed off with myself too. I even cried when i burnt isaac's toast.

I feel like such a bad person and its these dam photos that have done it. I'm pi$$ed off at myself cause i'm mad at the kids for not behaving yesterday. all i want is a few lousy family photos. I know i'm being stupid as they are just babies but crap i don't know im just $hitty Grrrrrrrrr. i have been trying not to take it out on isaac as i know he is only 18 months and can't help it sometimes, but today he is just being so naughty. and the twins won't sleep i just need a break.
i't just so dam stupit of me to be angry with a baby. and i know the photos are not surposed to be this important but for me thay are.
and just shopping last night at parramatter was so horrable. the people r rude the place was packed and i still didn't get to buy anything 4 my birthday 4 fathersday.

my house looks like a dump and the inlaws are coming tomorrow so now i have to put up with my ferral nephews my SIL with her rotton BO and my bogan MIL & FIL.
how on earth did my DH turn out so normal. thank god my mum is coming too so at least i'll have some support from her as well as DH.

I will be 29y/o tomorrow and to be honest i don't feel much like its going to be a happy birthday.

I think i have snapped or something i'll be ok just need to get a grip.
tomorrow i'm going to sit back and have a few glasses of wine (oyster bay merlot to be exact, awsome wine; expensive but awsome) and do whatever i want to do.

thanks for listening (reading) its made me feel better just to actually say why i'm $hitty even tho i still don't understand it.

next friday will be great cant waite....