OK some days i just get myself in such a pickle! Lucas has been awesome at putting himself to sleep and so when he doesn't i just get confused about what to do....this morning i had to pick him up and rock him to sleep then when i put him down he only slept for 20min so i got him up and he was tired and cranky again shortly after so that's when i put him back to bed and did the controlled crying....BAD MOVE, BAD MUMMY!! He ended up screaming the whole course of it, i ended up having to rock him to sleep and he slept in my arms for 40 min with a poo in his nappy that was making me dry reach (didn't realise it was there till he was asleep!).....now i could have saved time and heartache if i had have just done that at the start but i always have this voice in my head saying "don't pick him up....he has to do it himself" and i don't know where that voice has come from, if he usually does it himself it really cant hurt. I think i am just not ready his signs right but i dont know if i am going too early or too late. This mummy stuff is hard. Anyway i am waffling i just tend to stress myself out too much.

Ta had to vent!