Oh Jess, I knew something was up. You haven't been yourself for sometime now. Your not on your own though. Many many women feel this way to some extent, so don't think that your not normal for having these feelings. Councelling and or medication have great success with treating PND, you have taken the first step by opening up, so good on you, that takes guts and courage, something I know you have plenty of. I hope and prey for you that you start to feel better soon. I know it was a hard choice but I think you made the right decision about TTC. Like you said you need to focus on you for awhile. I think of heaps sweetie, and I really hope you feel better asap, if you ever want to chat off BB, here is my email lukem@aapt.net.au Please feel free to contact when whenever. I would love to chat. Like I said once earlier, even talking about these things will make you feel a whole lot better, I know from experience. Take care hun, hopefully I'll talk to you soon. Give that Ethan a big kiss from me.