Hey Lis, I don't usually feel guilty about having Liam in his pram for a couple of hours, because it's often the best way to get him to stop whinging about being bored at home, and I figure that even if he's not actually sleeping, it's still more restful than him wandering around the house going "hmm, sick of that toy, sick of that one too, so bored with that toy...muuummm, where's your leg, let me climb it..no pick me up, no put me down, want to touch the lights..ouch hurt myself falling over..bored bored bored.." If you get my drift. I reckon putting MM on your list is a great idea, she'll enjoy it even more now that she's a bit older too.

Jess - yay for the scan going well. I know what you mean about not realising that you were worried, but then huge sense of relief you get when your first scan is okay makes you realise that you were. Reading your pg stuff makes me feel sooo clucky. Not that I'm any chance of getting into a pg condition, I still don't have AF back, too much BFing from Liam.

Em - love your idea about the letter each year. I'd been kind of thinking about doing the same thing myself, but more along the lines of "if I die, then he'll know how much I love him" kind of way. Which is horribly morbid I know, but I think I have a weird brain sometimes. Your idea is a little more positive!

I had a little win last night. It took me about 2 hours to type my post, because Liam woke at 9.30 for food, then wanted more at 10.30, then after I logged off, woke up again. And then Pat says to me "come to bed, just let him cry",which made me a touch on the cranky side. But that's another story. Anyway, I decided to tough it out & not feed him, so just cuddled & talked quietly to him, and tried to brainwash him by saying "no food between 11 & 5", over & over again. Anyway, he eventually went back to sleep (without a BF, woo hoo for me, it's not often I can stick to being tough), and then didn't wake until 5.20 - so my brainwashing worked - hooray!! And I have to say, I feel fantastic, having got 5 and a bit straight hours of sleep, followed by another couple, because he was back in bed by 5.45, and didn't wake until after 8. And now he's asleep again, although he stirred as I started typing this, but I've stayed very very quiet, and he appears to have resettled, which means I'll probably get at least an hour & a half of sleep from him, which is sensational in this house. Now, if only the house cleaning fairy would arrive....