Luey , I know what you mean!! But don't worry,he was just tired and went back to sleep.Ha and that coming from me!

Mel, I agree with you about the babies changing so frequently.Sam has fantastic weeks then horrid weeks.It's not really the sleep issues I was considering going in for.More for me.But still...I don't know if it would even benefit me.I guess I can always leave if I don't like it.I just feel that there isn't enough support out there for me.I have tried and tried to work all this out and to some degree I have.But I don't feel like I am coping.I'm sure it's from lack of sleep......
I did the Post Natal test again at my last MCHN appointment and scored a lot higher than I had in the past few months.The questions are quite silly though.There is one that asks 'In the last week have you thought about hurting yourself' Answers are something like "all the time' , 'some of the time' etc etc.I answered some of the time and the nurse freaked!! But it's not like I am going to do anything.Just thoughts that I would like to smash the car into a tree.They are just thoughts and I have no intention of following through with them.Does that even make sense??
I just don't know what is going through my head.I feel lost, and not like me.I feel waves throughout the day.One minute I am fine the next I feel like life has no hope.I don't know why I have to feel these things, this is not how it was meant to be.

Gosh...I have just started talking gibberish on all of you! sorry I am very tired!!I am OK.

Just want to say thank you as well to all of you for being so welcoming of me and my very selfish posts.BB and all of you have been my lifeline.xx