Hello,

I'm back and I have so much to say so I might have to do this in parts....

Sam has been well, he has slept through 2 nights in the last week about 10:30 - 5 am, then gone back to sleep until 7am.He has cut his second tooth, that's two in one week!
He is just so cute, his personality is really starting to shine through and he=e is babbling all the time.Things like 'bababa' , 'dadada' and 'mamama' so cute! He has finally started rolling all the time, only from back to tummy though and cracks it when he wants to get back to his back.

AFM, welll....where to start....as you know I went to the MBU, it was great in the way that I could relax a little and I met two local girls who are lovely so I don't feel so isolated in the area.It really was more of a sleep school though.I refused to do the whole CC thing while I was there and had Sam sleep with me the whole time.I couldn't do it, it would have made things so much worse for me.
I crashed though, I though the new medication was doing a great job but it was only for a couple of days and then I felt worse.Turns out the new ones I was put on where to similar to the old ones and wouldn't really work.I am in the process of changing again to something entirely different.It's a very slow process though, can take a month or two.
It is messing with me big time and I have been having panic attacks and feeling as though I am not coping.Because of how bad I have been they are recommending I go to a different MBU for a while to speed up the change over, they can't do it at home incase it messes with me even more, they want to make sure I am in a safe environment.Gosh this all makes me sound like a complete nutter.....
On the plus side, it will be in a private hospital ( gotta get some use of my insurance!) and from what I have heard, it's more like a hotel, huge double beds, your own balcony and DH can stay whenever he likes.I am waiting to hear the final details today and should know when I can go in later today.I'm hoping it won't be for long.I went to the BB support group yesterday and the lady who runs it knows a bit about the hospital and seemed to think it wouldn't be more than 10 days tops, if that.
I actually don't feel to bad right now, and it makes me think maybe I shouldn't bother, but I know how quickly my mood can change.I just have to get this over with then hopefully I'll be good from then on and can put all this crap behind me.Blah...why does it have to be so damn difficult!!! sorry for moaning!

Now I will try and get some personals done, hello and sorry if I miss you.


Andie,So happy the flight went well.I would be so scared about it if it were me!lol about the bath.How funny! I have been waiting for Sam to it!
I hope Cam feels more himself soon, poor little chicken.

Luey, How is E? Poor thing, I hope he is getting better.

Bec,How is everything going? how are you managing on your own.Must be very hard.Jake sounds so clever! I can't believe he is pulling up, little muscle man!

Catherine, sorry I haven't gotten back to you, been so up and down and so forgetful.I couldn't change my appointment today so won't be able to come.Next Wednesday should be fine as long as I am home.Will text you later incase you don't get online to read this.Feels like ages since I saw you, hope to see you soon.I be Flynn will be double the size when I next see him.

Hi to everybody else!

I'm going to finish now, only so much I can say in one post! I'll bbl when I know what is going on.

Laura xx